"I need someone to talk to. Help a brother in need. Please help me"

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repost, original post in r/army by u/Ineedhelp993

 

Throw away because my account for for sure give me away

I’m losing my god damn mind, I’ve only here for a month but i am so tired of the isolation I feel as an officer.

I’m miserable, and I do my best to hide my miserable self from my wife so she doesn’t worry. She’s training at the moment, and the only reason why I haven’t killed myself is because she doesn’t deserve to come home to me in a closet, but I’m so damn close to just offing myself somewhere else so she doesn’t have to see me when she gets backs.

If I go to my chain as a freshly arrived LT I’ll probably not be taken seriously about these issues, I feel cornered with no one to turn to.

I want to talk to someone get shit off my chest because it’s heavy

Sorry for the long rant, But so tired of feeling like this, I’m not happy and I want it to end

Thank you for taking the time to read this Your friendly butter bar

I’ll have a 20 pc McNugget with large fries and a diet Dr Pepper

UPDATE: To those who reached out to me Thank you so damn fucking much for the support

From talking to everyone from Private to Field Grade and everyone in between I can’t thank you enough for the encouragement and support.

I’m staying with a fellow LT and will be going tomorrow to seek help regardless of what my CoC thinks.

Again thank you ladies and gentlemen for your words. I’ll be updating you all soon

 

9 Months Later

Thank you all, for those who reached out to me, Thank you so much.

If you don’t know why I’m saying thank you, look at my post history and you’ll know I wanted to off myself last year. My wife was gone to NTC, and I thought it would have been a perfect time to end it all.

I posted on here to reach out for some help and the community reached out to me and picked me up when I was down.

Thank you for all the people who reached out from the private who shot the shit with me on the phone , to the full bird who kept in contact with me, and didn’t berate me but talked to me like a son. To the female MAJ who treated me like her own and kept checking in monthly. To the SF dude who sent pics about trails he went on, in the local area when he was stationed here and gave me some solid life advice And the countless others.

Now instead of being 6 feet under and my wife a widow, I have a kick ass position, just bought a home with my beautiful wife, and I’ll be promoting to 1LT soon.

Thank you again, happy Monday everyone.

Edit: Jesus this blew up. Thank you again for the words of encouragement. You are all kick ass people and know when you’re down you have hundreds of people who want you here even if they don’t know you.

Have a fucking kick ass week people