Bad news brought back anxiety

[u/watermelon__7878]

My brother just had a baby 3 months ago and today he got benched on his job because the client company didn't renew his contract.

A lot of hard things have happened in the last 3 years, in the beginning of this year I kinda gave up, too much anxiety, I am not even able to talk to anyone, just sit alone all day. The last bad thing that happened to me was losing my job. I could've gotten another job easily but I kinda gave into my anxiety, now I am stuck, it will be hard to find a new job now. Today's news brought back the same feeling.

Heart racing, heavy in the head and eyes but unable to talk to anyone. I tried talking, to the person who used to be my best friend but it didn't help and I kinda regret talking with her.

Whenever I try to talk to someone l, they try giving me advice and tell many people faces similar problems etc. I am aware of what I am doing wrong, what I should be doing but I don't have courage, I lost courage and stopped believing in myself when I gave up earlier this year. It feels impossible to start believing in myself to start doing something. I don't have motivation to do anything, doing things to survive isn't something I can do. It's stupid but I am like this, I hate it but at the same time I can't change myself.