Mine is similar- but it’s not me, it’s others - it’s losing people. I lost my dad recently, but shortly after my mum got a cold. I mean it’s just a bloody cold but it SET ME OFF. I was crying my eyes out thinking what if the cold gets worse and something happens, I can’t lose her, cry cry cryyyyy! Eventually I pulled myself together and really very nearly had to slap myself back to reality. It’s a cold, she’s ok but I just have this fear on my shoulder because she’s old, you know? Our time together is shortened every day.
Paralyzed from the waist down she's bed ridden honestly has very little to be happy about. Her husband works like a dog and her son is severely autistic. She smokes like a chimney and now has end stage COPD. She lives in Indiana (my hometown) I moved from Texas to Georgia and took a step down also going to night shift just so I could be closer to her. Was the closest I could move within the company
This. Yeah I am gonna die. This little sentence goes over most ( myself included in my younger years) people's heads. I am breaking down, motor neurons dying, slower.... It's fucking brutal, aging.
That is brutally honest and hits right in the chest. Aging is no joke and your body definitely starts sending you the bill for all those miles. I remember jumping off roofs now if be scared to death doing something like that holy hell.. But once you stop fighting it and just accept the reality, it weirdly takes some of the weight off. You stop worrying about all the pointless noise and start focusing on actually living the time we have left.
Saying your life will really begin in retirement is such an interesting thing to say after all the other things you've said on here about time being fleeting.
Let's clarify something. Never said life begins in retirement. Time is fleeting so waiting around until the finish line makes 0 sense. The second half just means you finally stop wasting decades trying to please everyone and start actually enjoying the present.
Unless you’ve found a way around the linear progression of time, each day is in fact closer to death.
If you’re waiting until retirement to really live your life you may want to reevaluate your priorities. Those “golden years” are not guaranteed to you.
Can argue both sides there. You are dead right that waiting around for a finish line is a gamble and those years are never guaranteed. But shifting the focus away from the grind does not mean putting life on hold until a clock says you are done. It just means refusing to let the grind be the only thing you do with the time you have right now.
My sister got diagnosed with horrible cancer at age 52. She lived a healthy life. life can suckerpunch you at any moment. Do not live your life in the hope that a good life starts in retirement...
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u/Careless_Walk_3756 19h ago
that every day is one step closer to death