I've gotten much lonelier even with living people. Life is just so busy all the time I have no emotional bandwidth for friends or family other than my wife and kids. I've also come to the deep, deep realization that my wife will never prioritize her own self development nor our marriage in the way that I will. I give my family everything I've got and so much more, but I feel like nothing more than a provider emotionally, physically, and financially. That has been deeply sobering and has filled me with dread. As we get older it just feels like she doesn't care anywhere near as much as I do. She invests very little into our relationship, and almost zero into her own health. I love her so goddamned much, and I want our marriage to be so much closer and stronger than it is. I very strongly believe she thinks nothing is wrong, and if I ever even hinted at that possibility she'd totally lose it.
So I suffer in silence, feeling very lonely in my marriage to a woman I deeply love. She loves me back, I know that, but she doesn't bother to put anything into herself or our relationship. I feel us growing apart and I'm terrified that we will wake up next to each other one day as mere acquaintances.
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u/Kevin_D 5h ago
The older you get, the lonelier you get as everyone around you begins to die