r/BPD • u/user2222422224 • 11h ago

💭Seeking Support & Advice tw: suicide

sorry repost because it got taken down for wrong flair!! sorry!!

does anyone else get an urge to yk đŸ«ĄđŸ˜” when people start to like you? i dont know how to explain it, but when i feel like im loved by the people around me (or simply just feeling like im liked in my community), the thought of committing goes to the forefront of my brain. i wanna die feeling like people will think “what a shame, she was amazing/so sweet” or “i can’t believe smo who was so happy and nice to everyone would do such a thing” yk? am i crazy for feeling like this sometimes

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u/Charli_moon 10h ago

I have that but not for the same reason. My reason is that I feel like now that I have so many people around me they’re all going to leave me and so I might as well just end it right now so I can get it over with. Yours feels more like it’s the attention seeking part of bpd(not saying your attention seeking just that you want that kind of good attention and knowledge of love)