Mixed feelings about "passing"

[u/johnnyisdarling]

This isnt me asking for advice on how to pass btw.

So I do have dysphoria, but right now it's mostly over my voice and chest.

I also do understand some trans guy's aversion to being associated with being feminine when they dont view themselves that way, also.

But I don't dislike being androgynous. I don't really feel dysphoric about having "softer" facial features either, for the most part.

If it was possible to just be seen as a man and "pass" in society looking the way I do now, that would probably resolve a lot of the issues I experience. I guess that's not really possible and just requires perpetually correcting people since I havent medically transitioned.

While it does fluctuate, for the most part, I feel like when I look in the mirror I don't see a woman. I genuinely do think I just look like a short gay guy lol

I also wish aspects of myself weren't more associated with what chasers go for. But I've always been a "feminine" person....even though I don't even really like labeling it, I guess that's the closest thing there is.

Anyway I don't place passing on the top of my list of goals because there are aspects to my appearance I'm not sure I'm willing to change, but I also wish we lived in a society where somehow we all just sort of telepathically knew the other persons gender and no one...cared. Definitely wishful thinking.