r/GradSchoolAdvice • u/egoreuh93 • 1h ago
Application anxiety and 4 year rumination: should I rush this cycle or wait longer? (PhD Politics)
Hey everyone!
Looking for advice - the prospect of getting into grad school is very exciting and seems necessary for my life to go on, but my perfectionism and being stuck in life for 4 years has made the application process look like the freaking Everest. I feel I *need* to "perfect myself" before I even attempt it, and that contributes to me procrastinating until it's too late, every cycle. And 6 months later, it starts again.
Long story short - I'm looking for advice, see if it'd still be worth for me to attempt sending 3/4 apps this cycle, or wait longer, once again.
Goal: Get into a MA or PhD in Politics or Communications. My final horizon is towards journalism, however I'd rather deepen my expertise in these topics and pursue journalism on the side rather than get into J School. Aiming Berkeley, Stanford, Harvard, Princeton (+ Oxbridge if time).
Profile
Undergrad: McGill University '17, 3.77 GPA (PoliSci Honours, Minor Mathematics)
Work exp: 3+ years working on extremism and disinformation (6 months research, 2.5+ years in countering online harms programming); 1 year working in media. Extracurriculars in online investigations + activism.
Publications: 1 academic, 2 non-academic, but dated (2016 in undergrad journal, 2016 op-ed, 2021 public report on a project countering disinformation)
LORs: might be a weak point - can choose from 3 profs from 2017 undergrad (two good, one generic but more related to the field), 1 from 2022 job, I believe solid-ish
GRE: starting from scratch, I feel I could get a decent score with 2-3 weeks of prep - esp in quant.
The Catch: I haven't done any relevant work in 2.5 years - which will stretch to 3.5 or 4.5 if I apply next or the following cycle. And, I don't have much to show for for this time - been out of work and on benefits to deal with chronic pain and depression, no relevant work or volunteering - so my resume is blank since 2024. Graduated undergrad 9 years ago. I've been stuck in rumination purgatory for a lot of it, and finally getting to move again, slowly.
Questions
- Do you think it'd be worth attempting to apply this cycle? I'd need to do *everything* - lit review to get up to date, research profs, reach out to them, write research proposal and SOP, pass the GRE. I feel 6 weeks is short, judging from past attempts I made, and my core question is whether it's worth to submit a rushed application in 6 weeks, or instead take this time to travel, get back into life, get a job from the summer and apply in a year or two.
- How do you assess my profile and, should I not apply now, how would you recommend strengtening it?
- Should I wait, would you say the widening gap becomes a problem?
Many thanks!