Weird day.
Was gonna study 6 but here I am with 2.
Had a breakdown few minutes ago.
Then my friend texted me about taking wrong steps again,deleted reddit and left. Now i don't know what to think about it..no way of contacting them.
They told me that it's their fault for posting their study hours because people hate me for posting this. These posts about how I study sometimes almost 0 to maximum 5-6 hours.
Honestly,i judge myself too. Like what's the point on posting anymore? But i post for the sake of posting. I guess, probably for myself or for a particular someone who still believes in me,cause other than some,no one cares but it's better this way that no one cares.
Honestly i don't care about rank anymore currently.
Just get me out of this phase and place cause I am suffocating.
Idc where i end up,what tier college i guess.
All I will do is keep studying 0 to whatever hours and efforts I can manage to put in. Then at the end it's upto me,to decide if I could have done better or if am satisfied with whatever I did.
Who cares,just wake up everyday. Study. Get distracted. Regret.Sleep. Do better few days. Ruin your sleep schedule. Get up. Study. Breakdown. Then downfall. Then do better again. Fix sleep. Ruin sleep. Ruin health,ruin health and ruin health. Be it mentally or physically.
Written cause driven by emotions.
I hope my friend stays safe.
Wishing everyone the best.