Hi everyone, I’m 23 years old, and I want to share something personal and ask for your advice. I hope no one judges me for this. I respect everyone here, and I hope you’ll respect me too.

Some of you might not even believe this, but I haven’t had a single friend for the past four years. I have a girlfriend, at least technically, but we only talk once every month or two. I don’t have a good relationship with my family either. I spend almost all my time alone.

For the past one or two years, I had been engaging in paid sex, but now I can’t even do that anymore. My routine is just work to home and home to work, and I have to hand over all my salary to my family. I feel lonely most of the time.

For the past month, I’ve been experiencing some confusing feelings. Sometimes, I feel like I’m developing an interest in men. By that, I mean that when I see a guy in the restroom, I sometimes find myself looking at his size. A few times, I’ve also had thoughts about trying to be penetrated, so I even bought a toy. However, when I tried using it, it felt too small, so I threw it away.

Lately, I don’t know where these feelings are coming from or why I’m experiencing them. Sometimes, I feel like I want to date a femboy, a sissy, or a crossdresser (CD), especially someone who looks completely feminine. I imagine talking to them, going out with them, spending time together, and treating them like a girlfriend.

At the same time, I sometimes feel curious about being a bottom and trying different things sexually. I even have thoughts about finding someone who would take control and use me in every possible way, as long as we were also friends and could keep things private.

A friend told me about certain house parties in Delhi where people openly explore these kinds of things. I’m from Chandigarh, but I don’t even know where such parties happen here.

Someone I met on Romeo told me that none of this necessarily means anything and that these feelings might simply be the result of being extremely horny. And honestly, that could be true because I feel sexually aroused quite often. However, sometimes I also feel like this isn’t really who I am, and I wonder why I’m having these thoughts. Then, after a while, the feelings and urges come back again.

I’m genuinely confused about what’s happening to me.

Can someone please give me some honest advice?

• What do you think these feelings mean?
• Could this just be sexual frustration and loneliness, or could I actually be interested in men?
• How can I understand what I really want without feeling confused or guilty?
• What should I do about these feelings?

Please share your thoughts without judging me. I’m genuinely looking for advice and trying to understand myself.

Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this and help me out.

My daughter is 19 and opened up about a year ago about liking wemon. As mom, I could care less how she identifies herself. I just want her to be open and happy in life.

Basically, she is a firm believer in God and also openly a lesbien. That's is her struggle. How do I go about telling her she can he both?

Source: @morgana.steele Srs was at the wansiri hospital with Dr Saran, can confirm the results where amazing. Feeling so good being myself

I want to learn more, especially from stuff in the last 50-60 years. It can also put a lot into perspective.

How is it that everybody in this orientation grows up differently to theirs sexuality. Some lead a se life since sixteen and some much later. Can someone explain to me. Why is it so hard to find partner on LTR. How can you like hook up with someone who you haven’t seen in your life. I was already few times and feel the same empty and frustrated about this.

La verdad voy hacer directo desde siempre he pensado que los chicos o hombres como le quieras llamar me atraen , desde la secundaria veia a los chicos y decia wow , en prepa tambien y ahora en universidad me muero por uno es muy atractivo, el punto es que me he negado bastantes años pensando que estaba mal, y pues ya saben la familia que dice no salgas gay he salido con chicas pero de repente tenia un pensamiento asi y si salgo con un chico, pero pues todo se acaba las termine en su tiempo con respeto y de buena manera claro por otros problemas que no dire por privacidad y respeto. Pero el punto es que me da miedo que sepan que soy gay mis familia y amigos no quiero que me dejen de hablar y siento que soy una persona que se miente a si mismo y me canse enserio . Simplemente quiero abrazar a un tipo que sea mi novio y mimarlo.

so I finally decided to leave all the group chats that friend was in I did not block him and he called me

and all I said was I wasn’t comfortable being your friend anymore and he said ok and it went surprisingly smooth so I guess that’s the only good thing that came out of the situation

I’d love to post here and have fun here :)

here is some art I made of me and my sexuality (Neptunic)

i hope you like it!

Bye

I'm a 15-year-old girl and I've been lesbian for as long as I can remember. I live in a really homophobic country with strict Muslim parents, and lately I've been feeling so hopeless. My mom keeps talking about me getting married to a good man, and even though I love her and don't want to disappoint her, it feels so toxic.
Sometimes I almost convince myself to just give up and go along with it, even though I know that's not what I want. And I know I won't end up marrying a man. And I also know that I have to be financially independent and all that before ever thinking of coming out or anything.

I find so much comfort in hearing about other people's coming out stories the good and the bad ones. It makes me feel so much less alone, and it gives me hope that if other people made it through and built a life for themselves, I can too.
If you've ever moved out or came out, I'd really love to hear your story. I desperately want to know how it actually felt when you finally left a homophobic place behind and could just be yourself fully without people constantly up your ass about it.

Also, for anyone who's been to a Pride event, what was it like being surrounded by those huge crowds flooding the streets during Pride month?
How did that feel for the first time?

Any stories or perspective would mean the world right now.

I'm a trans man in the uk, whislt i look traditionally androgynous im still assumed to be female because im 5'2, anytime someone meet me they use she/her or they/them for me even after I tell them. My height ruins everything for me, anytime im percieved as mqsculine its ruined by someone going "you look like a butch lesbian" (sorry if that sounds rude i dont intend it im bad w words).

In short, I can't be a man because my height has screwed me over.

Yeah life sucks right now. I got outed as trans masc/non binary and pan to my extremely conservative, abusive and narcissistic mother by my so called best friend.

I'm crushed and I feel betrayed, we've been friends since literally the womb. She herself is bi so I don't even know why she'd out me knowing the way my mom is. I always knew I was queer before I even had the language to describe it. I live in an extremely homophobic country where being gay is illegal, being trans (classified as cross dressing under the law) is also illegal and I go to a highly Christian school.

I just don't understand why she did that. I've deal that with depression since I started getting gender dysphoria at eight but my mom doesn't believe in mental health struggles. She just thinks I'm being dramatic and laughed in my face when I tried to open up in the past. I've had ups and downs with depressive episodes, I had an ED and struggle with self harm. She told my mom everything. I guess I can understand maybe it was out of concern because I finally got to courage to talk about being suicidal but it only made things 100 times worse.

My mom took my door, my phone (I'm using my school laptop to type this), my switch, and all my "boy" clothes. She didn't even yell or hit me, just looked disgusted and told me she couldnt believe she was harbouring a child of Satan in her house. And yeah she signed me up for conversion therapy at an organization she wouldn't tell me the name off. I didn't know those places still even existed. She signed me up for the three month programme and apparently I should be grateful because "she wants the best for me", "it will help be get closer to God" and other bs. I cannot call CPS or the police because child services and protective laws don't do shit in my country. I don't want to spend Christmas and new years in a place like that, I don't want to live somewhere else, I don't want to be brainwashed, I don't want to disappear on all my online friends and community, I don't want to miss so much school because I'm in an examination year. Nothing I can say is gonna change her mind, once my mom believes something nothing can make her falter. I've already tried to cry and beg.

how do i (17m) stop feeling like shit because of it?? so i was in a relationship with this guy a little bit ago, i'll call him "kevin" (16m). kevin was so nice and affectionate in the beginning of the relationship, and we were already close, but he stopped taking me as seriously. if i didn't respond to him, he'd think i was an asshole. if i expressed my feelings, he'd just keep doing the same things. if i asked for advice or vented to him with his permission, he would just laugh and make a joke in a mocking way, not in a "i'm trying to make you feel better" way. he would make fun of me for being upset and make me seem like the bad guy.

i left the discord server (yes, i know) he invited me to since that was our primary form of communication and he wouldn't interact besides making me the butt of the joke, but whenever i'd leave the group and tell him how i felt or that my mental health was acting up, he would

he also never told me he loved me, would never wanna hold hands or kiss, or even sit close to me, but would always sit close with this guy "isaac" (15m) and flirt with him and say they were gonna get married, but whenever i would ask, kevin would laugh in my face and say he was joking around.

he then told me he was into isaac sometime before we broke up, but he "still loved me", even though he never showed it and he tried to get back with me like last month because they have this friendship going on that looks like they're dating but they're not actually dating because isaac is "heteroflexible" where he's bi and likes girls with one male exception and that exception is kevin.

anyway, he got mad at me for "ditching him" recently, and he would laugh at me because of my mental state and rather than be like "oh it's ok" he would be like "that's no excuse for ditching me LOL" and "ur so depressed and emo LOL" and stupid stuff like that.

i'm flirting with this girl (it turns out im bi-oriented aroace) and she says he sounds like an asshole, but even if i don't feel anything romantic for kevin, we still had something (i thought) and it did make me sad when he and his group would completely disregard me and he would just keep flirting with isaac. i'm not jealous, absolutely not, but the way hes treated me and the way he disregards me makes me so mad.

he also wants to go trick-or-treating with me and idk what to do because i also wanna go with the girl i like who invited me.

My mental health is deteriorating but I’m closeted so I can’t ask for help. I’m crying at work and losing my mind. All I hear everyone angry at me. I live with my bigoted family so asking for help would just make it worse. I’m so sorry, I couldn’t edit the flair properly it won’t let me. I just need to get this out.

Hace unas semanas empecé a sentir una ligera atracción por mi amigo de la universidad. para empezar llamémosle (Luffy)

esto comienza hace un mes atrás cuando recién ingresé a universidad, durante toda mi trayectoria nunca había tenido una cercanía o amigos hombres, siempre fui más de amigas mujeres, ya que mis experiencias con chicos eran muy malas por mi orientación, en fin, cuando ingresé a la uni note que un chico se sentaba a lado de mi en los asientos del fondo, era algo incómodo porque quería hablarle pero al no saber cómo reaccionaría me contenía a saludarlo, bueno en todo esto, pasó el tiempo y comenzamos a ser buenos amigos

al inicio yo no le conté sobre mi orientación y cada vez que me preguntaba sobre si tenía novia evitaba el tema.

yo no soy una persona de tantos amigos pero en todo esto empecé a hacer una amigas y ella le conté desde el momento uno sobre mi orientación me apoyó y me dijo q conocía más chicos, un día en la escuela fuimos a ver a un chico que era amigo suyo, y en todo esto mi Luffy llegó al lugar donde estábamos y escuchó nuestra conversación sobre el amigo de esta chica, a todo esto me dice “yo tengo un amigo que te puede interesar” en ese momento me dio algo de nervios porque me daba miedo el hecho de q me podría rechazar por ser quien soy, pero él reaccionó muy liviano, muy seguro y no demostro retracción

empece a hablar con su amigo de Luffy, (a su amigo llamémosle Ra)

Ra era un chico increíble, era perfecto, era extrovertido, lindo e inteligente, era la definición del chico de mis sueños, al principio sentí una gran atracción por él y me encantaba hablar de él con Luffy, Luffy me apoyaba en todo con el.

pero aquí no todo es bueno, a Ra solo podía verlo 1 vez a la semana, ya que él estudiaba en otra ciudad, y por temas de su uni tenía que quedarse allá, pero… a Luffy lo veía todos los días, convivía con el, reíamos, comíamos y nos sentábamos juntos, él siempre afirmo ser hetero, y que respetaba su relación, pero de unas semanas aca cada vez que me cuenta los malos tratos de su novia con él me hierve la sangre, porque ella no sabe lo q daría por un beso de Luffy, cada vez que estoy cerca de él se siente bien, me hace sentir seguro, me hace sentir querido, y siempre está conmigo, inocuo he notado que me da celos que esté con otros chicos o chicas aunque sean solo sus amigos o solo socialice, Luffy se volvió parte importante de mi, y no lo negaré, lo quiero

estoy enamorado de él, pero respeto el hecho de que tiene una relación con su novia y me intento poner límites entre la amistad que tenemos y el hecho de que soy “ligue” de Ra, pero cada día siento menos atracc por Ra, y más por Luffy, porque Luffy es tan atento conmigo, que me defiende de los demás chicos, que llegamos a compartir comida aveces, incluso hace unos días me emborraché con el, y entre el sonido de fondo y copas demás cada vez q me acercaba a decirle algo mi cabeza quería besarlo, quería gritar Que me gusta, pero me contuve de hacerlo por el bien de nuestro vínculo, así que solo pude tomar su mochila y abrazarla con fuerza y decirle “espero no huela tanto a mi” a lo cual solo se rio y me dijo “ntp” seguido de eso me acompaño a tomar mi bus y seguido al día Sig convivimos de costumbre hasta que me dijo “aunque tú quieras ocultarme algo yo siempre sabré que es“… cosa q me hizo dudar bastante,

ya que intento no dar a notar que me gusta Luffy, e incluso intento apoyarlo aunque me muera de celos cuando habla sobre los malos tratos de su novia, en fin

hay algo q me carcome por el hecho de q Ra es su amigo pero esto es inevitable Ra cada día me gusta menos y Luffy cada día me gusta más

alguna experiencia que ustedes tengan o q me puedan ayudar en esto…??

Ok so (for context I am a gay trans guy and my bf is a pan trans guy) there's this girl lets call her daisy (not her real name obvs im not out here to share personal details im js here to vent) i know i wouldnt rlly consider her my friend particularly not now but i met her through my boyfriend and she was like tollerable at first shall we say BUT recently shes been a whole nother person, like there has been a noticable switch up and shes js generally salty now. Basically when me and my bf first got together she used to try make us do coupley stuff and she called it cute anytime we did act rlly coupley but now she will start being rlly homophobic to us or screaming and i mean SCREAMING our deadnames at us bc she js learnt mine ON PURPOSE SHE COULD HAVE AVOIDED KNOWING IT AT ALL though she already knew his and was yelling it at him before to try and like fit in to the transphobes ig but she keeps js like stating that shes homophbic and transphobic when LITERALLY NO ONE ASKED and she keeps saying to us and out freinds that she hopes we break up (tho she also says this to a straight couple we r friends with) or like she hopes horrible stuff happens to us and atp its js rlly grating. Im assuming shes a red flag right... tho im highkey bad at social stuff so idk but what do yall think and any ideas on how to make her stop cuz weve asked her and granted she had tamed herself a bit but shes still almost js as bad, srry for bad spelling and anything helps thx random peeps on the internet :)

16(m)
I find myself sexually attracted to both male and female. It has only been a couple of months. I think i am bisexual but i am really not sure. Because i think being bisexual is cool so it might be my brain is portraying the attraction because it thinks it is cool. Or I simply might not be.

I am confused, help me figure it out.

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Sou mulher, tenho 25 anos e a 4 anos sou casada com outra mulher, eu sempre tive uma vida privada, desde meus 16 anos me entendo como uma mulher lésbica, já tentei ficar com homens pois sabia que era isso que meus pais queriam de mim, mas nunca consegui gostar, sempre senti nojo e repulsa só de pensar. Por viver sempre de forma privada, minha esposa é a primeira pessoa que apresentei aos meus pais, até alguns familiares não sabem do meu relacionamento, escolha minha, achei que estivesse tudo ok, minha mãe não me xingou ou me humilhou por isso, até hoje...

Dias de sábado sempre venho a casa dos meus pais, que moram em outra cidade, venho sempre todo sábado trazer minha esposa para as aulas presenciais da faculdade dela, que são sempre aos sábados, então uno o útil ao agradável e já aproveito a viagem para passar o dia com meus pais. Sempre foi tranquilo, eu levava ela na faculdade e vinha para casa deles, nunca me trataram mal depois que fiquei adulta (quando eu morava com eles, sofria muita homofobia) achei que essa fase tivesse passado e que com a idade eles tivessem amadurecido. Eu estava enganada.

Hoje eu estava brincando dizendo que os pais sempre amolecem com o segundo filho (sou a primogênita) e que eles haviam amolecido com minha irmã. Ela vira e me solta que por ter me criado de forma dura hoje eu era uma mulher independente e que se tivesse me criado de forma frouxa hoje eu seria como minhas primas (vivendo de auxílio do governo e com muitos filhos) brinquei que eu até poderia viver de auxílio mas não teria filhos por ser "sapatão".

Foi aí que ela surtou e começou com as ofensas, dizendo que eu tinha era "desvio mental", que eu não era normal, que se fosse normal eu e minha esposa deveríamos ter filhos, que sou assim pois tenho problema de cabeça e que vou mudar, que eu sou assim por querer ser "diferente", que ela está pagando pelos pecados e que ela me criou para ser uma meninha e vai e eu viro "isso", que ela queria que eu tivesse nascido um homem aí vai e vem eu que não sou nem um e nem o outro. Enquanto ela me ofendia eu tentava me defender dizendo que por que eu iria querer ser diferente, se por ser diferente corro risco de morte só por ser quem sou, e que não é uma escolha.

Depois de vomitar tudo isso em mim ela está agora fingindo que nada aconteceu, enquanto eu estou distante tentando assimilar tudo, e com uma vontade tremenda de ir para casa. Se eu pudesse eu não voltava aqui nem tão cedo, mas infelizmente preciso, pois preciso levar minha esposa para a faculdade e não tem nenhum outro lugar para que eu possa ficar.

Tô chateada e triste e me perguntando se ela me odeia tanto assim, sendo que nunca fiz nada, sempre tentei ser uma boa filha, tirava as melhores notas, passei em uma faculdade pública, sou concursada, até comprei um carro e dei para eles... Minha esposa sempre os tratou bem, sempre ajudou tambem. O que eu fiz para merecer tanto ódio? Acho que isso vem mais da minha mãe, meu pai nunca me falou nada assim...

Não sei o que fazer, e estou muito triste para brigar e me impor, acho que nenhum filho deveria escutar isso dos pais

I had cheese pancakes and she had ham and cheese 🧀

Can a crush feel different if it's healthy and also when you're growing up?

I've been mulling over if I have caught feelings for my friend. I'm 19f and she is also 19f.

This is a wlw situation.

I'd like to add, she's already told me she likes me. And I'm trying to understand what exactly it is I feel.

I've had crushes before but they've always been super intense, heart racing fuelled etc

(I haven't liked anyone in the intense way since I was 16.)

The stuff i can speak for:

. I can hang out with her for nine hours and not get burnt out etc and then it doesn't feel enough still.

. I feel very safe with her and at peace despite us only knowing each other for 4 months.

. I get jealous at the idea of her being/kissing etc anyone else.

. I want to text her and hear from her frequently

. It hurts if she has her walls up.

But:

. My heart rate doesn't pick up when I'm around her.

. There's some affection for her but it's not overly intense (yet?)

. No butterflies

. And I don't idealize her/idolise her or feel adrenaline when she's around. (It's not intense.)

Sooo I'm definitely gay. I act like one. I sway my hips, move my hands, and talk like one. If I were to come out as gay to my friends? No one would be surprised. One time, and this was when I was really young, I said out loud, "IM GAY AND IM PROUD" right in front of my sisters and mother. Obviously, my mother didn't take it so lightly and said that I shouldn't say stuff like that.

But as the years have passed, I believe that phrase is becoming a reality, and I'm not sure how to handle it. I truly feel this way, and I know it's most likely to be true since I am not attracted to women whatsoever. Yes, there are times when I've looked at a girl and was like, "Damn, she's gorgeous," but it was never like, "I want her and I to start a family, have 3 children, and live a happy life." But if we're talking about boys, it's different. If I see a boy I find attractive, I'd instantly be obsessed. This would be the kind of obsession where I'd go, "I want to marry him, feel his skin press against mine as we lie in bed and know the length of his lips, eyes, eyebrows, and arms by heart."

What I just described wouldn't be something a heterosexual man would say, right? These feelings and self-observations just prove I’m a living rainbow.

What scares me most, though, is what my parents would think if I brought this up. I know it's important, but I can picture them feeling horrible and disappointed. If the words "I think I'm gay" came right out of my mouth and flew into my parents' ears, I cannot imagine a single positive outcome. I can already imagine the Christian lectures they would give me, reminding me of the strong faith our family has kept since day 1. I definitely love my religion and have what I think is strong faith, where I pray before dinner, lunch, bed, and when I need to talk with God. But knowing that my religion does not support what I believe I truly am leaves me perplexed in every way. I don't know how to help it.

This has led me to fall into a habit of questioning myself. I begin saying things like:

"Maybe this is just a phase."

But I've felt like this my whole life....

"What if you do whatever feels right for you and not let your religion stop you?"

But I don't want to upset my parents. I've carried such a strong faith for as long as I can remember, and if I do what's right for me, I'll feel as if I've betrayed everyone and everything, and I don't want that.

"What if you just tell your parents how you truly feel?"

What's the point of doing that when you can already predict the outcome, one that probably won't be too good?

And this process keeps repeating. I can never truly find peace and comfort when I bring this topic up. At the same time, I'm searching for ways to find that peace and comfort. 

Overall, If anyone reading thinks I've put your life into words, I’d like to ask: how do you handle this? Or how DID you handle this? Please let me know your thoughts, and thank you for reading this far. 

Edit: My dad has told me that he wouldn't care if I dressed up like a girl or anything, but I'm not sure about what he'd think if I were to date a man. Sorry, I thought that'd be an important detail.