Overwhelmed, birthday coming soon

[u/PurpuraFulminans1789]

I am 36M, turning 37 soon. My bırthday is on the 24th, less than 2 weeks from now. I am dreading my 37th bırthday and feel like I do not want this bırthday at all.

I feel awful and hopeless. Just wanting to talk, as I have no friends and thus no support system whatsoever.