I am unsure where to share these thoughts I am having. Go ahead and let me know if this does not quite fit the sub, please. I would genuinely appreciate that.

I know some of us were troubled by existence during our adolescence. I was afraid of the implications of there being a reality to perceive at all. When the most likely outcome in my mind would be there is no such thing.

Trying to imagine non-existence as an existing observer was a paradox. And I'd lose my mind sometimes. Randomly at dinner. Or in gym class. "None of this makes sense. How am I even here? How is there even a 'here'?" Stuck in a loop. I'd be upset and none of the adults could understand the reason for my tears, no matter how much I explained it.

But the last eight years have been transformative. I see reality very differently. The paradox is still there, but I've made peace with it. The fact is there is a "here", so now what? What is there to learn?

I have been thinking about how far some of us have come. I have left behind several earth rituals I no longer participate in, including drinking. I have become someone younger me would be confused by. Also the term earth rituals seems weird, but it works for what I'm getting at.

Synchronicities played a big part in that for me; how far I've come. And as you may well know, synchronicities have a somewhat mainstream recognition as small signs and odd coincidences. People also associate them with confirmation bias and mental illness.

For me, it started with the TV, radio or nearby conversation, saying the exact words I am reading, an action I am doing. Or describing whatever object at least one of my senses is interacting with. Typically unrelated streams of information, crossing through phonics and different languages.

I then looked at information universe theory (hypothesis), and non linear time models. I have kept an open mind and I started to see a web. Things turning and touching. Things shooting through lines, curves, reflection and refraction. I see filaments and pathways. But also, folding. Altogether seeming like liquid or plasma in how it moves.

And what do I see moving? Information? Subatomic particals? Photons? I see them all being able to communicate over great distances in a fraction of a millisecond.

But the way I am seeing these things is a map being projected in an area I am spacially aware of. I do not literally see the information. I feel it. Like an extremely large 3d puzzle being filled in randomly in the tiniest of dots.

I see subconscious thoughts and intentions pop up in small instantaneous synchronicities and some in larger patterns.

Imagine me talking about this at a park with some random person, the odds are they will be baffled by me or wary of me. Even if I seemed like a decent member of society before. They may now see me as someone who is illogical, out of touch with reality, untrustworthy. Maybe even see me as destructive to the natural order of things.

I think synchronicity speaks to a multistructural reality comprised of information and that it is also made of some element of consciousness or compatible with it. I think it is how some people might remote view. How some people might hear a word someone is thinking of, right before they speak. I think it's how you can share information with someone mentally and pull a card that represents a past, present or future, or some kind of information tied to their subconscious.

Maybe it is just that you can get lucky and latch onto the right information channel. And the more you do it, the more tuned in you can get.

And I think this information is readable by the human mind, electronics, and the state of reality. It exists outside of time. While we experience time in a line, it can be anywhere.

I want to elaborate even more, because I could go on and on ("more than you have already!??" Yeah I know hahaha)

But I will make my point. I have felt a shift over the past month. I feel more and more connected to reality. I feel safe. Synchronicity does not scare me. It doesn't make me go run around in the street naked blasting people with a super soaker shouting "there's information in the air!! and in our brains!!! squirt squirt! and in this super soaker!!!" I am very much sane and coherent. I am not a danger to myself or others.

I have been treated like I lack reason for it. I have been talked to like I am an idiot who can't tell fact from fiction. And I just have to shrug. Because if you don't see it, you don't see it. I can't change that. I can only go with my best guess after each new revelation, keeping my mind open to what it may or may not be.

Thank you for reading. I look forward to your thoughts, if you want to share them with me, with us here. May you have a good evening!

So I was out with a friend of mine to grab a drink but we got caught in the rain so we ducked into a diner to eat. When it let it up, we left to find a nice bar. We had about five different places to check. Everything was crowded with no bar seating so we kept looking. One establishment We entered randomly reminded me of a bar I frequented in the early 90s in a totally different part of the state that a guy I was casually dating at the time introduced me to (let’s pretend it’s called Al’s Place). I mentioned it to my friend. Meanwhile I was firm about wanting to check out the last place on our list. It was on a quiet side street so missed it the on the first pass. We walked in, it was too crowded so we stepped back outside. And while standing by the door deciding what to do next, the guy I was dating in the early 90s who introduced me to Al’s Place walked up to the door. I haven’t seen this guy in 30 years. (Funnily I’ve seen him once before at a far away location about five years after we were dating). Did I have a premonition of some kind? It’s happened to me before where I think of a random person and then spot them shortly thereafter.