r/Zepbound • u/MiniMarlamallow • 10h ago
Before/After Pics 22 months in, 125 lbs down
2 years ago I was in agony every day. I had terrible endometriosis pain, uncontrolled IBS that made it nearly impossible to leave the house, high blood pressure that gave me terrible medical anxiety, uncontrolled asthma, an immune disorder that left me sick all of the time and reflux so bad that I had to sleep sitting up most nights. I was 43 and felt like my best days were behind me. I had always been fat and active. Suddenly I couldn’t be active any more and that was scary.
As someone who very much embraced (and still do!) the HAES movement, I struggled with the existence of GLP-1s. I had only ever seen them in the context of helping skinny people become skinniER. Strangely, watching a standup special (Jim Gaffigan’s The Skinny) changed how I saw these meds and I quickly started to rethink what was possible for me.
For the first 18 months I didn’t look at the scale. I weighed once a month, my husband dutifully put the number into the app on his phone and he would tell me how many pounds I was down (and because I weighed only once a month, it was always down). At some point I asked him what my starting weight was and he told me it was 299. That number was hard to hear (although I had surpassed it during and after both my pregnancies). I have had a lifetime of fatphobic nonsense, forced diets, weigh-ins, shame, tracking, obsessing and I consciously chose to do this differently. I would not obsess over a number- scale, or otherwise. I would not be tracking anything and that was such a strange feeling for me. At first, I would finish a workout and think “why did I do this if I don’t get credit for it?” Eventually that grew into a really healthy mindset- I’m doing it for the joy of movement and because I CAN. My body feels better when I move, that’s all the credit I need.
I am now 22 months in and 125 lbs down. My endometriosis pain is gone, asthma is nearly gone, IBS is gone, I was on blood pressure meds for 12 years (since the birth of my daughter) and I’m now off of them, I was on a PPI since my first pregnancy (17 years) and now my reflux is gone, despite my family getting sick multiple times, I haven’t had so much as a cold. This all sounds insane as I type it, but it’s my lived experience. The weight loss has slowed way down and I’m mostly ok with that. When I started I thought “250 would be amazing” and then I lowered it to “225 might be impossible, but what if???” and then “199 would be a dream”. My stretch goal is 150. Sometimes I still doubt that I will get there, but uncertainty has been a constant companion on this journey and that’s ok.
Things that worked for me:
Trying lots of new foods. I used to crave high fat, heavy dishes. If it didn’t have pasta, cheese or have a dipping sauce, I wasn’t interested. Those foods never agreed with me and it never occurred to me how bonkers it was that I craved food that made me sick. Think of your last stomach flu- do you ever eat the food that got you sick again?! No! Yet, I was having terrible reflux (sometimes including vomiting) and near constant IBS-D flairs and I was powerless to stop eating those foods. Now I am exploring seasonal veggies, lots of soups (I used to hate soup- not filling enough- it made me sad) and interesting salads.
Automating 2 meals a day. Breakfast and lunch are always the same (breakfast- coffee and an Almond Butter Kind Bar and lunch is a maple turkey sandwich with air fried kettle chips). I do have to remind myself to eat to avoid nausea and having the same easy breakfast and lunch takes the thought out of it.
Exploring new recipes for dinner. I have always been an avid cook, but I have had to say goodbye to most of my tried and true recipes. I now have a binder of all of my new tried and trues.
Popsicle flavor Liquid IV- I adore it (I probably would have hated it preZep) and I split one packet between 3x 40 oz bottles a day (with lots of ice!!).
Clothing Rentals- my size is in constant flux and after spending money on some beautiful things that I quickly undergrew, I decided to use a monthly clothing rental company for that shopping dopamine fix without the waste.
Visiting this Reddit! I’m making this post because I realized how important and helpful it was to read and watch all of your stories unfold. Seeing what was possible was incredibly hopeful to me. I hope I can be that for some Zep newcomer.
