i am in my adolescence, and i'm scared, they say God judges you with how good you've been but why does he hurt you, put you through all this, why does one religion determine if you are good enough, i'm not Christian and i have had people scare me into being Christian and I struggle with it, i try to be a kind person but if God judges me on if i am Christian or not what is the point of life, what is the point of going on if i won't make it to heaven, i love everyone i know and hold them close to me but what if it doesn't matter if God tells me i wasn't 'good' enough and all the people i love forget me because they were good enough but i wasn't, i don't want to suffer, i am afraid of going on if it is all for nothing in the end, i am just a kid, and now i am going to suffer for eternity because my parents didn't raise me 'right'

If any Christians are actually looking to spread a bit of love, i could really use it now, i am so scared and i don't want to live on if i'm not good enough just because of one thing, rn i'm thinking of just dying if i can't be good enough.