This could be us, but

[u/vesmir_neasi]

I don’t need much. I want eat sweets without getting fat, I want to feel wanted and I want equal rights. Is it much to ask?

[u/Vektorien]

That's not the kinda story I could ever see myself going through. Just making friends like that already feels like something that's just not meant to happen for me, let alone starting a relationship.

I don't have it in myself to believe you when you say things will work out, to be completely honest, but I try to take each day as it goes at the very least.

[u/Vektorien → u/[deleted]]

I do theater acting as a hobby. Been at my current group for a little over a year and presented in public twice. Somehow the part where I start making real friends instead of just meeting acquainteces with shared interests never came. I'm also part of the local board game and TCG scene but also can't bridge the gap between friends and acquaintaces there either.

Regarding therapy, i've been doing it for about 8 years at this point, with no signs that's gonna change anytime soon.

[u/Vektorien → u/[deleted]]

I mostly feel that because I see people all around me making friends and finding lovers and I just... don't really understand any of it.

I can put on a character and act my heart out no problem but when It's time to be myself I genuinely don't know what to do when I interact with people. I can't read their expressions or body language, I miss their jokes, I fail to land my own jokes and I get easily overwhelmed trying to socialize in large groups (10 or more people).

I'm pretty much always running blind on some level when I interact with someone because I can't tell how they're feeling or what they want clearly. They say 70% of communication is nonverbal and that is a massive blind spot to have.

Yes, I have Autism and ADHD, diagnosed since childhood.