r/confession • u/Consistent-Good-1914 • 13h ago

Venting about college dropout + former S-Worker (promise not to be too long)

I think being 22 and seeing all my peers graduate while I’m on my second gap year due to finances is really getting to me. I used to be a SW-er to pay for school…two sugar daddies, tuition paid, whole nine yards. I thought I was set for life till I realized that like if work wasn’t good for me at 18/19 years old…I stopped talking to them, applied to scholarships/set charity events and worked two/three jobs. Couldn’t afford it even if I wanted to. I’m at this weird stage where I want to go back and finish my degree but having an outstanding balance and being no where near paying it off makes me feel like a failure. I had hopes and dreams in being in the medical field and now what?? A server at a shit restaurant and still seeking SD for a bit of cash?? It’s pathetic. I feel pathetic. I just ultimately wish I could just go back to school and get my degree and feel like I am more than just what my body can do for other people.

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u/MandMs0106 13h ago

You’re still very young, do not compare your life to your peers. You can take out student loans and pay it back after you’re all set with your medical career.

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u/cutegirl5445 6h ago

I agree she's young and shouldn't compare herself to everyone else but she already has an outstanding balance so loans aren't that simple.

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u/thelordismyshotgun 13h ago

I get you're struggling with motivation but sex work is valid work and nothing to be ashamed of. Just be firm with your boundaries as sugar arrangements can have blurred lines.

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u/cadcrr 13h ago

lol yea that’s pretty weird bruh. so you had your tuitions paid but still want to go back?? but only if a sugar daddy pays for it huh. yea you’re weird asf.

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u/Consistent-Good-1914 6h ago

That isn’t what I was saying??? I didn’t want SDs to pay for my education anymore??

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u/Definitive_Cherylann 8h ago

Its honestly so draining seeing everyone graduate while you feel like your stuck in place, but you really aren't pathetic for struggling with costs. Please dont be so hard on yourself because the system is set up to make it impossible, and your worth isnt tied to your bank account or a degree timeline. Keep your head up, youve already shown how resilient you are by getting out of those situations.

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u/supergirl0971 5h ago

i don’t have much advice but i wanted to say that i understand you. i’m 21F, i also dropped out of college and got involved in SW (briefly). it didn’t amount of anything, and life has been dead end job after dead end job since. i really miss who i used to be in school before i had to leave. i’ve also been thinking about going back too because this life without school isn’t what i want at all.

sometimes i think about this quote i once heard: “nothing changes if nothing changes”. you and i can continue to be out of school, feeling like failures and missing what used to be. or, we can take a leap of faith and go back. most people live with debt. whether it be a mortgage, car payment, student loans, etc. i think for you it might be worth taking out loans, looking past the outstanding balance and following your dreams to the medical field. i think in five or ten years you’d rather be a doctor or a nurse with some debt than still a server, still feeling negative, still unaccomplished.

you aren’t pathetic. there’s nothing embarrassing about SW. you made decisions that were informed to the best of your knowledge. we are navigating our 20’s for the first time and that alone can have plenty of ups and downs. what do you ultimately picture yourself accomplishing? what does your most ideal life look like?

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u/JeanSchlemaan 5h ago

Comm college for much of education is cheaper.

Save $ working 2 jobs, or if you're cool with dancing or OF do those.

Government loans..

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u/Living-Estimate9810 12h ago

Some kinds of work are age-restricted and/or time-limited: you can only do SW while you're young & pretty (relative to your clientele), you can only carry a hod until your joints give out. The trick is to make these hard years pay for the soft years we hope to have later: improve your skills, save your money, learn their secrets.

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u/RealKillerSean 10h ago

Bro most people I know with a degree aren’t using it. Like the only one is the computer science major.

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u/Grave_Marble7516 49m ago

outstanding balance is a billing problem not a verdict on you and plenty of people walk back into nursing or pre med at 26 after a few years of serving so the door is way less shut than it feels right now