Turned it all around this weekend, and stopped drinking, eating crap and being depressed. Instead I ate well, socialised, cleaned, exercised, and I’m grateful that on this Sunday night I am feeling myself again for the first time in months.

I’m thankful for another beautiful fall day, a morning conference where I got to see people I usually only see once a year, and the fall colors on my hour long drive!

She was the maroon to my ocean. She added so much depth, wisdom, and love to my life that her absence feels as though the core of this earth is no longer there.

I can't believe that this pain will linger in my heart for the rest of my life.

But I know that the pain that I feel is the fluid displacement of her love. The water that pours out of my eyes is the core that is placed inside my heart, with a finger striked up in the air, evicting the water from my soul.

The pain that I feel is a different face of the same coin as the love that she has given me. To feel this pain is only possible because of her love.

The same way I'm put at a trance when starring at the ocean, I now surrender my heart to starring at this canyon.

I'm so grateful for you, a-mah. Thank you for giving me the earth.

And you know the rain makes green stuff seem greener, which looked so great with the bits of autumn color that are finally appearing where I live.

Happy to harvest the last bit of stuff from our garden before we get frost this weekend…which I’m not ready for. Solid load of late season watermelon and some green tomato’s most likely bound for the freezer.

It was beautiful getting out for golf and 80s on Monday, but this cool snap with storms, that’s always appreciated plus the good nights sleep that goes with it! Also, feel like my head has been getting more clear and feeling lighter these days. May be due to my gratitude practices 😂🤷‍♂️

We don’t know how much knowledge we have until we see people doing the things we thought was general knowledge out of ignorance. I’m grateful for everything I’ve learnt and super grateful for the vessels that taught me directly and indirectly they’ve shaped me into who I am today.

three days ago i got into my first car accident (i completely own it was my fault), though it was nothing serious and no harm was done to anyone, the persons car did get damaged pretty bad. today he just got back to me with the quote of cost, it’s £457, he’s paying it for me. i don’t know why, i tried to talk him out of it and said i’ll pay the for the damages i caused. but he was persistent, very thankful for how stress free he made a bad situation i cause.

I’m still very much new to this platform and some how it keeps pushing this subreddit my way, as a grateful person I see more reason to be grateful here. I hope I’ll also have a positive effect here.

I had social anxiety all of a sudden at 50. It was like one day I was just ordinary me and the next day every symptom known to the "change of life" a woman goes thru happened. It has been a tough road and meeting with friends again was a major goal. I felt their love and laughter...and support that I dont know why I hadn't had this sooner. I am a long ways of getting back to normal but today I felt beyond happy♥️

Everyone is healthy and fed. Kiddo is happy. One shitty meeting will not ruin my weekend. I have an exit plan and I am safe.