rooftops

[u/gentlelad24601]

When I was small

My father told me that he jumped off a roof

Because he couldn’t take the thoughts in his head

He told me he would also get faces stuck in his head

That he would ruminate about death

Death, death, death

Over and over and over

That it wouldn’t stop

He couldn’t look at dead actors on television

That triggered loops

“I’m gonna get faces stuck in my head”

I’m not small anymore

And we don’t even talk

But I see them

I see the faces too

I feel the loops too

Death, death, death

Over and over and over

They don’t stop

And I can’t fight them off anymore