It started with the motion sensor controlled lights in the bathrooms at work being slow, they lit up faster if I waved my hands a bit. Then it has just turned into something I do every time I enter a public bathroom.

When I feel my stomach rumbling and feel it coming down in my colon, I immediately think "ohh yess it's coming!" and when I release it I feel an enormous amount of joy and pleasure like something just made me feel infinitely better. It's hard to explain but I tried my best.

It’s a self consciousness thing. I’m salty but it’s too silly for off my chest.

(Quick warning, this is gonna be cringe. Super cringe. But it’s a “silly” confession, right..?)

For a quick heads up, I’m an adult now, but it still puts a smile to my face whenever I think back of this, xd!

Soo to be quick, there was this one janitor in my school that stood out so much amongst the others despite having the same uniforms, and he sticks out like a sore thumb since compared to the rest of them, he wore a mask and a huge hat (The climate in our country is quite hot, but he seems to be the only one to dress like this😭).

By the way, the mask was Ghost’s. (Simon Riley, Cod, the og balaclava mask. Except it had no eyeholes, so his eyes and facial features were completely hidden.)

…..And you know what, during that time, I happened to be a huge Cod enthusiast and Ghost was my favourite character, so my brain completely short-circuited when I first caught glance of him at the hallway, having a conversation with his other janitor buddies. He spoke in a WAAAY quieter tone compared to the other loud janitors though, so I never really got to properly hear how his voice sounds like.

Ever since that, my friends and I gave him the nickname “Ghostman”

(And before any of you say anything, no, I’m not pretending to be a call of duty fan, I’ve played most of the campaigns, but I’m more of a Modern Warfare enthusiast)

Anyway, back to where we were, the man sorta seem to have a dad bod typa build, not exactly a bloated stomach, but not muscular as a bodybuilder either, I’m not sure how to really explain it. He’s pretty big though. To top it off, each of the janitors are given an area for their duties, and his area is at our block, so I’m able to see him take out the trash and doing his job almost everyday by stealing glances from the class window. (I’m sorry, this sounds creepy. I do admit, I’m kinda a weirdo for this 😔

(There are two blocks, one for the younger students, freshmen etc, and another which is ours, the seniors.)

….You’re probably wondering; Is he catfishing?

To answer that, no, he absolutely wasn’t. In fact, his looks exceeded my expectations.😟

On a random friday, just a few hours away before classes finally end, I was in the science lab, bored, scribbling random sketches on the desk while the teacher babbled on about the current topic. I moved my head to look towards the window, and saw something that is still ingrained into my brain until today; his face, bare, mask pulled down to his neck. No big, silly hat on his head. He was walking towards the janitor room with another janitor next to him (It’s something like a resting room iirc? Like, for the janitors to take breaks.)

I unfortunately only got to see it for a few seconds before the other janitor blocked my view. I was able to appreciate Ghostman’s side profile for a bit before it’s completely blocked, though.

His face wasn’t like Samuel Roukin’s (Ghost’s voice actor), but he’s hot, looked kinda russian(?) He had those tired eyes, a light stubble, and he rocked a buzz cut, which made him look like he would belong in the military. I’m practically dead already at this point.

If it weren’t for the janitor uniform, I would’ve actually thought that he’s in the military. He had the height and size for it aside from the dad bod I aforementioned.

…That was the only time I ever got to see him unmasked, though. Never saw his face ever again after that.

Aaand end of story, I didn’t do anything dumb and just graduated like any other student would. I felt so devastated on the last day of school though because it meant not being able to see him anymore.

And honestly? Even though it’s been 3 years since I last stepped into the school, I still feel flustered whenever I get reminded of him or if my friends tease me about it. I guess the feeling never really faded, just being stored into the archives of my head.

I also heard that he’s still unmarried, so I wonder how he’s doing these days👀 But again, I’m not gonna do anything stupid though, so yeah.

I was watching a movie with a friend and somewhere around the middle I realized I had no idea what was happening. There were too many characters and apparently I had stopped paying attention at exactly the wrong moment. My friend asked if I understood what was going on and I just nodded like everything made perfect sense.