ok now before you walk away, before you tell me i’m wrong, answer one question. where did the very first thing come from? if you say something made it, then where did that something come from? keep going backward. sooner or later, you run into the same problem. you cannot get something from absolute nothing. but if absolute nothing could never exist, what does that tell us about existence itself? that’s where this whole investigation begins. i’ve been reading books about the mind, god, and existence, and they brought me here. if you want interesting books to read, ask and i’ll give you my current top 3.
what is nothing? close your eyes and picture nothing. did you picture darkness? darkness is still something you can picture. did you picture empty space? space is something too. now remove space. remove time. remove every star, every atom, every law, every thought. nothing is not an empty room. there is no room. it is not a place waiting for the first thing to show up. there is no place and no waiting. so how could nothing ever make something? it could not act, because there would be nothing there to act. but here is the bigger question: was absolute nothing ever even possible? that is the question i want every person to sit with.
the diagnosis of the dream: here is the bold claim behind my title: we have gotten so used to the world we see that we mistake our picture of the world for the whole truth. i call this the psychosis of certainty. think about a dream. while you are dreaming, a street feels like a street and a person feels like a person. you do not stop every second to ask whether you are dreaming. now ask yourself how much of your waking life you have spent questioning what “real” means. this is a challenge to our certainty, not a medical diagnosis of every human being. it is a question that can shake the way we think.
the mind and the world: you never see the world without your mind. light reaches your eyes. your brain helps turn it into the picture you see. sound reaches your ears. your brain helps turn it into what you hear. everything you know comes through experience. does that prove there is no world outside your mind? no. but it proves that seeing something and knowing its deepest nature are not the same thing. my bigger idea is that mind may be more basic than matter. what if the whole world is an experience inside a much greater mind?
god and the first source: in my spiritual picture, god is not just a person far away in the sky. god is the source of everything. think of a dream. a dream has mountains, water, people and sky, but all of them appear within one mind. now imagine a source so great that whole worlds could appear within it. that is how i picture god. the world would not have to be made from some physical material outside god. it would be one way the source expresses itself. i call that source infinite spirit. it is the heart of this vision.
the garden and the locked script: now think about the garden of eden. in my reading, the garden is the moment we forgot how close we were to the source. the serpent stands for a bad code that teaches fear, greed and control. i call that reptilian code. it is the script that tells people to hurt the earth, take from others and treat life like it has no meaning. that is where the colonizer mind begins in this story. a locked timeline means living the same harmful choices over and over because you believe there is no other way. but a script can be challenged. you can stop repeating it.
stars, spirit and star seeds: look up at the stars. in this spiritual vision, stars spread pure spirit energy through the dream. they carry light from the one source and help give the dream its shape. that is what a star seed means to me: a soul connected to a star. one soul may feel tied to a star far away. another may feel tied to a different star. but all of them are connected to the same first source. even when two stars are very far apart, their light belongs to one great story. stars really do make many of the elements found in our bodies. my idea that they also spread spirit energy is the spiritual part of the story, not an established scientific finding.
spirits, atoms and the grid: in my model, spirit is the deepest layer. spirit appears as atoms, atoms build the things we touch, and those things form the world we call real. imagine a picture on a screen. you see trees and houses, but look close and the picture is made of tiny points of light. i picture reality like a great grid of spirit, with every little part linked to the same source. that is why i call it a spiritual matrix. the world feels solid, but in this picture, its deepest foundation is not solid matter. it is mind and spirit.
the real way to wake up: now here is the part that matters most. be a better person. stop hurting people. stop hurting our mother earth. stop doing things you know are wrong. if drinking or drugs are taking over your life, get help and work toward freedom. work out. build strength. take care of your posture and balance. eat, rest and heal. read books. learn new things. meditate if it helps you feel calm and clear. do not try to be stronger so you can hurt others. become so strong in your character that anger does not control you. become the top of the mountain by learning to master yourself.
what higher consciousness means here: in my vision, a clear and loving mind can grow closer to god. i imagine a level of consciousness where the dream can be changed by thought. that is the great power at the center of this spiritual story. but do not confuse the idea with a promise that meditation will let you break physical laws. the first change you can make right now is real and close to home. a thought can change a choice. a choice can change a habit. a habit can change a life. enough changed lives can change the world. start there. the rest is a mystery worth exploring with care.
why goodness comes first: imagine giving someone endless power when they only want to hurt others. what would they do? now imagine giving that power to someone who loves life and protects it. in my model, that is why pure hearts matter. evil grows when we keep feeding it with fear, greed and cruelty. goodness grows when we practice it. even if you have done terrible things before, you can choose to begin again today. nobody has to arrive perfect. you just have to start changing and keep going.
people worth reading: george berkeley was a philosopher who argued that the world we know cannot be separated from perception. william james was a doctor, psychologist and philosopher who studied the mind and religious experience. carl jung was a psychiatrist who studied dreams and symbols. david bohm was a physicist who explored deeper ideas about order in the universe. roger penrose is a mathematical physicist and nobel prize winner who has written about the mind. david chalmers is a philosopher known for asking why brain activity comes with experience. donald hoffman is a cognitive scientist who argues that perception works more like an interface than a perfect picture of reality. bernardo kastrup is a philosopher who defends the idea that mind is basic. nick bostrom is a philosopher known for the simulation argument. anil seth is a neuroscientist who studies how our experience of the world is built. they do not all agree with this manifesto, and their work does not prove its spiritual claims. read them because they ask hard questions.
my brothers and sisters: what if the greatest thing we can do is stop living without thinking? what if the dream ends, not when the sky opens, but when we stop letting fear write our lives? stop waiting for someone else to make the world kind. be kind. stop waiting for someone else to protect the earth. protect it. stop waiting to become wiser. open a book. stop waiting to become stronger. take the first healthy step. whether you believe my spiritual picture or not, you can do that today. and if you want to know what books brought me to these questions, ask me for my current top 3. it is time to wake up to the choices we still have.
EDIT: since posting this theory Reddit has restricted my account and I honestly don’t know if this is the matrix targeting me for bringing a theory like this to such mass attention or if there’s a much simpler explanation. About 2 days after posting this I finally had a chance to sit down and start replying to comments after being busy with responsibilities and not having much time to engage. Now mind you I’ve been working on this theory for years so I can recite my arguments pretty fluently without having to sit there and think about every little thing I’m typing. I also type extremely fast. So I’m assuming I probably replied to way too many comments in a short period of time according to Reddit’s standards and possibly triggered something that flagged my account as a bot.
First the original post was permanently deleted, then a moderator actually restored it, then my entire account was permanently banned. I appealed the ban and thankfully my account was reinstated, however now I’m restricted to making only 1 comment or post every 8 minutes. This makes it pretty difficult to enjoy a regular ol 30 minute Reddit session where I can just sit down and reply to a bunch of people back to back. Having to wait 8 minutes between every single response is honestly pretty demotivating, especially when there’s so many interesting conversations happening here that I’d genuinely like to participate in. So I’m apologizing beforehand for my absence or delayed responses. I’ll still try my best to engage whenever possible and hopefully these restrictions are lifted soon so we can keep these discussions going.
Now a lot of you have been asking me what books I’d recommend to better understand where all these ideas are coming from so I figured I’d leave my top 3 here and throw in another 7 for anybody who really wants to go down this rabbit hole.
The first and most important book I’d recommend is The Remembering by S. Stone. This is actually the most recent book I’ve read and it ended up inspiring some of the most important revisions I’ve made to this theory in years. It explores consciousness, spiritual existence and the possibility that what we experience as reality is only a fraction of something much greater. What really caught my attention was how some of its ideas connected with questions I’d already been wrestling with independently for years. It didn’t necessarily give me all the answers but it definitely opened up some new ways of approaching the questions.
The second book is The Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot. This was actually the book that led me to The Remembering through Amazon’s recommendations. At the time I considered it one of the most important books I’d come across while developing this theory. Talbot explores the possibility that the physical universe might not be as solid or fundamentally separate as we perceive it to be, drawing from ideas in physics, neuroscience and holographic models of reality. Some of his interpretations are speculative but that’s exactly what made it interesting to me. It challenged me to reconsider what we actually mean when we call something real. For a while this book was probably the biggest influence on my thinking until The Remembering came along and took the reins.
The third book is The Perennial Philosophy by Aldous Huxley. This one takes a completely different approach by examining the similarities between spiritual teachings from different cultures and time periods. What interested me was how people separated by thousands of miles and hundreds of years could arrive at remarkably similar ideas about consciousness, existence and some greater underlying reality. It made me wonder whether these traditions were approaching the same fundamental questions through different cultural languages.
Now here’s another 7 books I’d recommend looking into.
The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle explores how much of our everyday experience is shaped by identification with our thoughts and the constant mental separation between past, present and future. It really gets you questioning the relationship between consciousness and the mind.
The Tao of Physics by Fritjof Capra compares concepts from modern physics with Eastern philosophical traditions. It doesn’t establish that ancient spiritual teachings were scientifically correct but it raises some fascinating questions about the similarities in how different systems describe reality.
The Kybalion by Three Initiates explores Hermetic principles involving mind, correspondence, vibration, polarity and the relationship between different levels of existence. It’s more of an esoteric philosophical framework than a scientific text but it definitely gives you some unusual concepts to think about.
The Doors of Perception by Aldous Huxley examines altered perception and the possibility that our ordinary awareness filters out far more information than we consciously experience. This one really gets you thinking about whether the reality we perceive is necessarily the entirety of what’s there.
Wholeness and the Implicate Order by David Bohm explores the idea that what appears to be a universe of separate objects might emerge from a deeper interconnected order. It’s a much more demanding read but definitely worth looking into if you’re interested in the philosophical implications of physics.
The Conscious Universe by Dean Radin examines research into psychic phenomena and the possibility that consciousness might have properties conventional scientific explanations haven’t fully accounted for. His conclusions remain controversial but I found the questions being investigated interesting.
And finally The Book: On the Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are by Alan Watts. This one explores the idea that our perception of ourselves as completely separate individuals might be a fundamental misunderstanding of our relationship with existence itself. It’s probably one of the more interesting books for anybody questioning what the self actually is.
What’s funny is that this whole reading journey basically started with Amazon recommending different books after I’d finished reading something related to consciousness or philosophy. I’d finish one book, look through the recommendations, find another title that caught my attention and just take a chance on it. Sometimes the next book would approach the same questions from a completely different direction and suddenly I’d have an entirely new line of thinking to investigate. One recommendation led to another, then another, and eventually I had this whole collection of ideas from authors who weren’t necessarily even arguing the same thing.
And that’s really how this theory has evolved over the years. Not by finding one book that supposedly explains everything but by constantly comparing different perspectives, questioning their assumptions and trying to figure out where the ideas connect and where they contradict each other. I don’t agree with every conclusion in these books and I’m certainly not claiming all their arguments have been scientifically established. I’m just explaining some of the material that helped shape my thinking.
Anyway I appreciate everybody who’s taken the time to read this theory whether you agree with it or think I’m completely out of my mind lol. The disagreements are honestly just as interesting to me as the people who agree because they force me to examine things I might have overlooked. Hopefully Reddit gets these restrictions off my account soon because I’d really like to continue these conversations without having to stare at an 8 minute countdown every time I want to respond to somebody.