Got my 125cc about 4 weeks ago and I've been doing some gentle practice to get used to it. Today I practiced my commute to work and due to taking a wrong turn on the way there I was coming back half an hour to an hour later than expected, and it was really dark. I've never driven in the dark before and it was raining too and I was really shocked by how shit vision is on a motorcycle even with high beams on.
My commute is mostly country roads, and as it was getting so dark and visibility was so poor I was taking it extra slow. On one gentle right-hand corner i was taking at about <30 I turned my high beams off to not blind an incoming car and suddenly everything was literally pitch black except for two blue headlights directly in front of me. Because I suddenly couldn't see anything except those, I rolled off the throttle and slowed down to something safer (I can't remember if I applied some rear brake or not but it's likely i did a little bit), and essentially just drove off the road slightly on the left into a pile of leaves because I couldn't see the road surface anymore, and dropped my bike on my foot.
Thankfully I was taking it slow already and was wearing full gear etc and had slowed down before it, so I'm totally fine, but I still feel bad. I was probably doing less than 15mph on my speedometer when I lost the side of the road so I'm hoping my bike is fine too, although my ABS light is flashing now.
I don't know what I should have done here - it was already really hard to see and as soon as I turned off my high beams it was literally like driving with my eyes closed. No street lights or cats eyes or painted lines or anything to judge by. You would have thought the oncoming headlights would show me the road at least but absolutely nothing except just two blue dots.
I'm not really sure how I feel about this - I'm not sure what I should have done here and I guess I just feel like a shitty rider. Any tips or anything? :/