I am sinning and need help

[u/Puzzleheaded20008888]

I am 18, living in Canada, NS. I was born a girl.

I have for years felt like I should be a boy, I have cut my hair short wrapped my breasts till flat and have even been in a relationship with another woman.

I have since tried to find my way back to god. I have preyed but nothing seems to get rid of the thoughts I have. I’m now in collage and have once again cut my hair short and started wrapping my breasts again, I tell myself I’m just trying to not come off as ‘sexual’ but that’s not the truth.

What preyer can help me? I haven’t gone to church in a long time so I do not know if there are any truth Christian churches near me.