(29F) I'm used to getting hate comments here & there, but lately, it's been nothing but massive waves of hate comments on Instagram. I'm not even posting anything "controversial"; I'm an artist so I'm posting art & posting videos of myself being silly to make others laugh. Some of these comments are truly horrific; causing me to cry & question what I did to deserve this degree of hate.
I think it's worth mentioning that I have autism & Complex PTSD; so it's already difficult living with these. I don't need some immature troll online adding onto what I already deal with daily. I've been through enough in my life & am just trying to find a bit of joy in posting online.
Trigger Warning: I got told to kill myself, to delete my account, to hang myself, got called the N word a few times, the R word, the F slur, someone told me "they were gonna make me a mother" & I get a lot of "hateful meme" comments that are mean spirited...all for posting silly content of either myself or timelapse drawings! I usually block the people who post these comments & delete the comments due to how uncomfortable they make me & for my own safety.
Like, some of these people are so determined to shit on me that they find a post where I have open comments & call me a "fascist" & that I'm "taking away their freedom of speech" all bc I'm trying to protect myself against toxicity.
What even is the actual purpose of this behavior? Like what's the goal here, what is the end goal in doing things like this? Why be so persistant in spreading hate & toxicity to a random, 29 year old autistic woman on the internet? I understand that hate comments are "normal" online, but this seems excessive. I don't know if they're bots, trolls; I have no clue. But like, how fucking hard is it to block a profile if you don't like the person's content? People act like they're contractually obligated to comment on everything they see, even if they hate it, and they're not! And what happened to "if you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all"?