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I cant do it anymore. I hate myself and my life so much it hurts. I have tried so hard, for so long. I am never happy anymore, nothing works, not even drugs. I have a painful pit in my stomach all the time. I wake up sad, go to sleep sad, go through my day sad. It hurts so fucking bad and I dont want to do this anymore. Im not gonna accomplish anything, ill never be able to go to post secondary, never have the job ive dreamed for over a decade. I havent had friends my age for almost 5 years. I am so alone and in pain I dont know what to do anymore. I just spend my days hiding because I know im unpleasant to be around. No one wants to be around someone like me. I really dont want to do this anymore

I used to be such a joyful person when I was younger/in college, but it seems the older I get and the more life experience I get, the life is being sucked out of me. I pretty much hate 90% of people. If I sense that I have been done wrong or there is an ulterior motive in the relationship, I cut them off immediately. And on top of that I am SUCH a resentful person, it is very hard for me to just move on, forgive and forget. I don't really have friends because my tolerance is so low, at the same time, I don't really want any friends. I hate how people are so fake and only care about what you can do for them. I feel like nothing is genuine and everything is a competition and performative. If you look at my life from the outside, I have no reason not to be joyful because on paper, my life is "great". But I feel less joy now that I ever have. I feel like my mindset of the world and life in general sucks but I don't know how to change it and I really want to. I sometimes feel like I am crazy for thinking the way I do because my issues are not an issues to most people and they carry on. Any advice??

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I’m 21F and I am struggling pretty bad rn. I crave friendship w ppl around my age but it just seems like I can’t make that connection. I don’t smoke, I barely drink, and I’m highkey a homebody who is like a nerd. So because of that I feel like it’s hard to find friends my age because they want to go out to bars, or party and stuff and I just don’t vibe w that. I feel like I’m old in a sense. My anxiety and being self conscious also gets in the way too.

I can't properly take care of myself because I feel like I'm being watched through cameras in the shower and toilet. It freaks me out. I have to go weeks without showering because of it. Anyone else struggle with this? I can feel a physical presence watching me.

It's making me really want to leave my house. I don't really have anywhere to go but I feel like i can't trust my parents or anyone.

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(20m here) It is happening from last 3 years almost,Idk but out of nowhere I start to feel like somthimg bad is going to happen with me or my family members in future and I start to feel "idk how to define that but something like fear and related to that" and this have become so normal in my daily routine and I am tired of this, I automatically assume worst case scenarios in each thing,I am not aware if my some other points are related to this or not but here are some-

-If I see some Sad or crime type news I start to feel guilty and sad at the same time(not for some seconds but quite long and it stays with me for some time), although I don't see any news rn and have stopped following political things too

-If someone sees at me even with normal expressions I start thinking of that negatively for hours

-if two or three of my acquaintances are around i will be quite confident if not my personality changes like I start speaking low volume type shi

(Idk whether this will build a link or not but Just to tell I ain't a loner, I like talking with people but I just don't know how to talk or start talkinh,I don't have so good frnds rn thus I visit dicord for some talks and all but it ain't helpful enough either, I like roaming around with frnds on vehicle too)

I sometimes even grave being beaten idk but it comes so hard,during my last bday month I was slapped with a slipper by father on some reason it hurted very much I cried a bit but I liked that idk becoz of smrhng like sympathy I get becoz of such things I just don't know

Please don't be hateful if I made some mistake in this passage,any advice would be appreciated!

I ruined everything like last night I kept lashing out on all of my friends dude I can't even explain it usually my hypomania isn't that bad its been like 2 days its still bad hypomania but im young so its a bit like chill I guess maybe adults have it the same I don't know but I dont know what snapped into me but everyone Kept pissing me off and I was legit so delusional and I just lost all my friends I don't really need friends from this worthless human mass but I ruined all my realitonships and everything and now I don't know what to do because if I apologize I look weak and it ruins the god complex I have over them sorry if im explaining wrong maybe this isn't because of my bipolar idk but I just fucked up way more then usual yk

I mostly hate humans, for 90% of time they betray, take from me or humaliate me. I once opened to my ex-gf. After that everything broke. I know it is bad, but seeing other happy is like poison to me. Gets under skin, destroys everything. I really don't have much support in life. I hold mostly razors.

There are moments where I wish people death. Only in thought. Mostly painfull, slow and everyone forgets them.

But I dream of love. I have dreams where it is my time to be happy, no worries of judgement, no betrayals. Only care and love.

Then I wake up. Go to work. See others being happy.

I hate the most when someone younger is happy. Because that reminds me how shit I am. They had less time and they have more than me.

Life is hard without love, without support.

But I managed to live that hardway for 20 years and more. But still everyone thinks I am looser.

I have an insane need for attention i've been an attention seeker forever i used to hammer myself for attention because of the bruises but now it's the night before school and im too scared to go to sleep because im scared it won't bruise by the morning but it's so so painful i don't want it all to be for nothing. i tried to cvt my lip with a raz0r and i don't have a hammer so im using anything i can on my cheekbones and i wanted a black eye but i cant. im not asking for help to harm myself but i need advice and some quick support

So I get to see my boyfriend only once a week. We either hang out once a weekend or spend the whole weekend together. We're both 19 and we only stay at his place with his family if we do have a sleepover. Now I've noticed a very big increase of me disociating when I'm with him. Like all I want to do is hug him and rest on him. Let my mind rest. But I also don't like the fact I'm not really there half the time. The dissociation feels like I'm just not there or far away from where I want to be. But it's also calming and I don't have to worry about anything when I'm with him. I feel like the disociating is a good thing but Im not sure. Throughout the week though of not seeing him my life is pretty stressful at times and all I want is to be in his arms. Can anyone relate or is the disociating a good or bad thing? And yes stress and trauma plays a part but maybe it's just because I feel safe with him?

I’ve been going through a really difficult time emotionally, and I feel completely drained.

The hardest part is that I genuinely want to feel better. I want to enjoy life again, feel motivated, and stop feeling so overwhelmed by everything. But no matter how much I want that, I just don’t know how to get there.

Has anyone else experienced this? What actually helped you start feeling like yourself again?

I [22F] graduated 4 months ago. For context, I was the topper of my section in uni but you know my father is a narcissist may be that's why I always topper because he never let us come anything other than first. So now after graudation it's been 4 months I'm at home. I am depressed because he is not letting me do any job till I get at a top tier company how can I ever get into top tier company if I don't have any experience??? But he don't listen and wherever I get a job he says it's not a good company I'm depressed because all my friends are moving forward and I was being the topper but still left behind. I haven't been out from my house since 4 months. I'm going deep into depression. I don't have any motivation left to persue anything now or talk to anyone. I had a male friend [24M] whom I could talk to about everything but a week ago I left him because he hid his gf from me and never told me about her even being emotionally crossing every boundary with me which I didn't liked and confronted him in anger but now I'm thinking I should have not confronted him at least I used to have a friend with me in this depressive phase but one day don't know what happened to me I just confronted him and it's been a week now. I don't know what's going on with my life what should I do. I'm exhausted don't have any motivation left. Any advice would help. Thank you!

This might sound really odd but for some reason. I cannot love life? My life is not really that bad. I have a job thats okay but i dont really like, i have a boyfriend that i want to marry but cannot because of some family problems, i dont currently like my weight and need to put weight one but its hard, im so broken, im only 25? And i feel a bit of a failure, i have no desire for going out? Or dressing or anything and if i do it lasts for 2 days. I struggle with actually looking after myself , and i constantly have the desire that i need to make something out of myself but i always feel so restricted? I dont know why im like this, i wanna be that girl who dresses up again and is organised and takes care of herself , who actually really loved herself , and wants to better herself but i feel like as the days go by i get worser and worser, its like i have no hope or passion anymore. I dont really have anyone to go out wirh but im a really talkative person. The stuff i am really into my boyfriends not really into that kinda stuff. And honestly i used to be such an adventurous person and sometimes do stuff alone and now id honestly do nothing at alll, i just dont know how to love a life. I genuinelyjj feel like stuck and dont know what to do .