I get that it could always be worse and that most people don’t get a relationship in high school, especially LGBTQ+ people, but it’s all I’ve wanted for years and knowing that it’s normal to be single doesn’t change how much it hurts so I’m sorry.
I’m 16 male, I’m gay (out) and demiromantic (not out), and I just want a boyfriend so bad but I’ve never had any romantic experience before and I’m just so romantically lonely, and then I also have a huge crush on my straight best friend, and I just don’t know what to do with my life without teenage love because it’s all I want and my dream used to be to experience childhood best friends to boyfriends, but I can’t get that cuz I don’t have any childhood friends so it’s too late for that, but since I’ve settled and now my dream is just to experience teenage romance, it’s all I want in life.
But I just don’t have any chance to get teenage romance because I’m so in love with my crush and he’s straight and even if I wasn’t in love with him there’s just no lgbtq+ guys in my grade cuz it’s a small school.
I just want teenage love so bad, I’m so desperate for it, I want to get to experience the firsts, the hugs and handholding and kisses and dates and school dances and shit, I want it so bad that I just, without it what’s the point? I don’t know what to do, I have no motivation anymore I’m just so lonely and so tired of my crush liking a girl when I’m not a girl and I’m so desperate to have a boyfriend. I need advice, I’m lost and have no motivation to try to improve and stuff…
In summary I just don’t know what to do because realistically I have zero chance of getting to experience my one dream of teenage romance, so I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with the rest of my time in high school, or what there is even left for me after I graduate