Really starting to love the real me ❤️❤️🥺🏳️‍⚧️

I dont know how to put this into the proper words, how do you know if you are trans or under the umbrella. I feel so many different things daily about what/who I am. I don’t know if it’s how I feel or if it’s because I’m depressed or I’m depressed because it’s how I feel. I’ve ties using different pronouns and it doesn’t make a difference, well it kinda does like if she/her is used sometimes it make me happy sometimes I don’t think about it, when he/him is used I just don’t care like I don’t feel anything. I unfortunately can’t try and dress more feminine, I don’t have irl friends to talk to and use different pronouns. My dysphoria sometimes hits like a truck and other times nothing. It seam to be whenever I see other women I just sink into a pit, which I think it’s the whole joke of ‘ do I want to be with her or be her’ and I thinks it’s always be her. But I don’t want to…. Like I have thoughts of being a woman but I don’t know if it’s that I want to be more fem presenting and be nonbinary. There’s so many things that I keep seeing that I think/can relate to.but back to when I see women, I dink know if it just I want to look like them or if it’s something else. There’s so many things I think that I want/need but I don’t know how I should or do feel. I heart says one thing and my head another and it keeps swapping and changing.

I am Not really sure where to start this has been so hard I’m 32 mtf my name is Jaylee I’ve been married for 12plus years my wife is highly against transgender women. I came out to her back in November of last year I transitioned for 6 months was really accepting my new self but I struggled with honestly and telling her the right way I knew how she felt about it. She has always had a very disgusted attitude about feminine energy and trans girls. We have 2 daughters 9 and 14 and now one on the way in the next 6 months it’s a boy. I’ve struggled most my life with keeping this secret. I didn’t want to lose her so I smothered all this down and pretended to be normal best I could hid all feelings and buried my true self. This was back in march I stopped taking my hormones cut my hair grew my facial hair back it caused me so much pain on the inside but I held on that I was doing right by my family. As time went on the dysphoria and the depression was unable to be controlled. I’ve came to terms that I’m transgender and I don’t have a choice in this matter I can’t live without being Jaylee I hate that this hurts her so much . She acts like I’m a disgusting monster for wanting this and is now wanting a divorce . I’m truly lost I’m just wanting to be ok with myself and keep my family I know I can’t make her feel a certain way but she won’t even consider that this is real it’s just a selfish choice I’m making and choosing over her in her eyes. Sorry to write it. This is just really bothering me. I know who I am. I can’t deny any longer. It will take me years to get back to where I was last year, but I have to work towards it. I can’t even stand to look at myself in the mirror. She loves who I was, but I’m unable to.

Hey hey, I'm very socially awkward and anxious but most sources I've found to help transition always mention a good community or people but I don't really trust my family enough to tell them yet.

I'm currently male, wanting to transition to female, 21. I know reddit's not the best place for this, but I don't have a Facebook, and other social media apps suck at connecting you with new people.

I live in the broken-arrow/Tulsa, Oklahoma area if there's someone else who needs a friend. I don't mind in person, but would rather we start online. (Social anxiety and what not). I also wouldn't mind a purely online friendship

MTF. I’m at the point in my life where I’ve made the decision to fully embrace who I am and begin my journey of seeing myself on the outside the way i see myself on the inside, a female. Yesterday, with my hair and makeup done, was the first time in my life ive ever truly seen a glimpse of myself.

This is all so new to me to I guess i just wanted to try and get some advice and talk to others

Transgender support ❤️ 💙 ♥️

Hello everyone, I´m Ellie or Lacey (feel free to use whichever one you prefer, as I'm testing them both out!).

I'm currently questioning my gender identity. I'm trying to finally express and understand a side of myself that I’ve kept repressed for several years at this point, and I'm looking for a safe space to do that.

I might mostly read and listen at first, but I'm really glad to have found this group. If anyone else started their journey after keeping things repressed for a long time, I'd love to hear how you navigated these early stages.

I am 25, a t-girl and am probably demisexual. Idk because it could mainly be dysphoria, but maby not. I began HRT on July 25, 2024. Since then, every alteration on my body was amazing. I actually like the reduced sex drive, and it was no problem for quite some time. I am in a relationship and sex for me was always more focused on my gf (cis, 25 yo). There is no problem with that, and I enjoy participating in her fun. But because of my bottom dysphoria she can't touch me down there, therefore I always did that myself. That somehow felt okay.

Personally, I am not a fan of a steel rod, and I prefer my thing to be smooth and soft. Doing it otherwise is a bit painful, not very comfortable and I only did it in the past with myself, because I didn't know there were other ways. So, for a while I could do humping, petting (always with underpants on) and touching myself. That doesn't work anymore and even for masturbation it's tricky. Now I barely feel something before I come and then Im finished and can't come again or need time to do it again. The problem is I don't like having cum anywhere, because it's disgusting to me (only my own one). Therefore, I close the foreskin with two or three fingers and then release myself in the toilet.

This effort of course is a turnoff to me and after that I only try to come again If im really, really horny. Because of that I tried out new things. I used a vibrator on my crotch, touched my nipples and even got into prostate stimulation. Still, I can't cum without touching my thing and when I do its allways little to no sensation until I feel something, and then it's over in 2-3 Minutes. And it's not very rewarding.

Touching my nipples feels better than 80% of the crotch-action but I can't come from that and it's not enough. So, I though, okay I have to learn how stimulating the prostate works. I watched videos, tried tutorials, cleaned myself, used a lot of lube, two types of vibrators (one reall small and short, one really large and long) and my fingers. I tried everything to feel comfortable, many positions and I've put a lot of effort, time, and work into it. After my third time trying it I gave up. I could feel my muscles tensing and relaxing, the pressure, even the need to pee, but never any real sensation or pleasure. Maby, I have the wrong toys, I did it wrong or something else, but it just won't work.

Soooo I tried anything I could think of that I can do, post-surgery and this is it. I'm waiting until November 1 because that's when I can schedule a preliminary consultation — and I don't even know if I'll get one. And even if I do, it'll still be a while before the actual surgery takes place. By now, I'm so sexually frustrated that I don't even expect the surgery to make things better. I still needed it, though, because I simply can't live without it.

But even if things improve just a little, I’ll still have to wait a long time before I can use her, and I’ll probably need a second corrective surgery. And I don’t know if I should just accept that I won’t be able to enjoy sex much until then — and that maybe things will get a little better afterward, once everything has healed — or if there’s anything else I can try.

What I know about myself now is the following:

- I really enjoy giving pleasure to other people

- My gf can touch me anywhere but the crotch

- I don't show my thing Infront of my gf; the boxers always stay on (except for ass spanking)

- Teasing my nipples feels good

- I can put stuff in my back without it hurting but I couldn't get pleasure from it as of now

- Only via crotch touching - by me - I can come but, it's not really fulfilling

- I am open to try new stuff

- I need and will get bottom surgery and hope my sex live improves

It's better than nothing and most of the time I can ignore it. I masturbate like once or twice a week, which is fine. The most stuff always happens in my head. I can have fun during sex, but it's never as good as the anticipation before it. And really good sex for me means, my gf comes and I come, but for me it takes like 5 minutes, and sometimes after she comes, I am too exhausted to even make that happen.

I may be demisexual, but this sexual frustration is really getting on my nerves. Lately I can't even make the two times a week of "me time" a somewhat fulfilling event. I want to change that. Is there still hope? Can I overcome my sexual frustration? And if so, how?

Thanks for reeding all that. And please be kind to me. You don't have to help if this isn't your thing. Also, these are all my personal experiences, and I have no problem with t-girls who enjoy their body parts and can do things I can't. I am happy for you, and you are not any less trans than me or vice versa.

Heyy I’m Miche

I’m newly out MtF socially transitioned. and seeking community, advice, guidance, friendship.

I live downtown Chicago!

Would love to chat!

I am a 20-year-old transgender person from Iraq, and I want to undergo gender transition. I took hormones for a few months, but my family found out and threatened and physically assaulted me. They forced me to stop taking hormones and confined me to my home because of my gender identity. I have been experiencing physical abuse and confinement at home, and this situation is still ongoing.

Unfortunately, I do not have any evidence to prove the threats or abuse I have experienced. However, I am genuinely afraid for my safety and need help.

Is there any organization or support service that could help me in this situation, protect my safety, and potentially help me find a way to leave Iraq and live somewhere where I can safely be myself and pursue my gender transition?

Ppt surgery done 03/01/2025 but hole rape 16 mm depth 2 inch

Hello a little context to my life I am m21 I live with my parents and I work with my father my parents aren't bad people but the culture I live in and what they believe in is very right wing I believe they would not support my decision at all and would probably disown me that being said I would not like to live in the culture I am living in right now anyway and especially not if I was trans recently after many years of wanting to I bought fem clothes and started dressing/acting like a girl online and it's the happiest I've felt in a long time and there's a huge part of me that just wants to leave everything move to a new city on my own and become a girl and have a fresh start to my life my problem is I've worked with my father as a builder since I was 16 in my culture we don't go to school or college or uni men work with the fathers untill they work by themselves and I do not know what I would do for money if I left as I know how hard getting a decent job is right now in the uk for anyone I have saved around 20k in my bank account and I have alot of money in cash aswell so theoretically I think I could hold myself up for a little while but idk what to do after that I enjoy my job doing building work but idk if I'd be able to continue on my own as a mtf and I feel like I'd want something more gender affirming yk but please if anyone has any words of advice I would be greatfull thank you (I live in the uk for context I also have my own car that's mine) also sorry for bad grammar I'm struggling to write this