Alt account for obvious reasons.

I am in 2A of my program, and it's been so annoying and so tiring since 1A. This is reading week and I am spending my whole time working catching up on 5 weeks worth of course contents. Even then I am unable to do so, I have 2 INC on my record right now, and I am spending my whole time just either studying or trying to study.

I go to Uni, come back, and just work on things from Uni. Lectures don't make any sense, whatever the Professor is yapping doesnt make sense, and its not even the Professor, the Professors are genuienly highly rated and are genuienly so good and amazing. But, nothing makes sense, I go in lecture, sit, ready to listen to whatever they are saying, but its all gibrish to me, I have no clue what the Professor is saying, what topic they are on, what thing they are saying. Nothing makes any sense. And before you say skim through the slides/course/topic before the lecture, that didnt make sense, all i get is more confused. I go to Uni, sit in lectures for what? 2 hours? and for what? no use, absolutely no use, i come back and then i have to re-do everything as if I know nothing.

In 1A/B i tried skipping lectures, just sitting home and working on lectures my self... I ended up going 2 months without leaving my dorm or talking to anyone in person. And even then I only left because the finals were coming up and I had to print a cheat sheet. And in 2A I am trying my best, absolute best to not go them into the same hole, I made my self to have my Labs/Tutorials in a way that it forces me to go to Campus 3 days a week. Thought that might help me, but thats just more useless, on those 3 days I start thinking about going to Campus from the moment i wake up, until i actually go, and when i come back, I am behing on all my lectures suddenly. I go to Uni, come back from Uni, no interaction with anyone, just go silently, come back silently.

I dont have time to relax, i dont have time to do anything, i dont have time to talk to my parents even... why? Cause im always working, always behind on my courses.

I see others, my roomates, my friends, they all have a life, they all have someone to talk to, and i dont mean it in a relationship way, i mean they have a friend, whom they can call talk and just share stuff with. I see them going around enjoying life, going to places, going to sports, gym, and still being good in academics. HOW? GENUIENLY HOW THE FUCK DO PEOPLE DO ALL THAT SHIT? IM HERE WORKING MY ASS OFF JUST TRYING TO CATCH UP ON THINGS HOW THE FUCK DO PEOPLE HAVE SO MUCH TIME?

I spend hours working on a fucking subject, just to barely pass it, these they play games whole night, go to events, go to sports, one day before the midterm in the morning they are going out for fun, HOW? HOW? When there is a midterm i spend 2 weeks just studying for it, for to just barely pass the course, how the actual fuck do people do all that? I was kicked out of my program into another program because i didnt have the grades to stay in it, HOW? GENUIENLY HOW?

im sitting right now trying to work on my INC course, but no shit is working, and i am genuienly so fucking annoyed by me, why cant i just do it, how fucking hard it is to just do. Just fucking do it, how hard is it to just do fucking it.

i joined design team thinking maybe it might help, so far... it has just been another thing on my mind, i havent gotten time to do anything, let alone work on design team, im just trying to do my course work

and i am so fucking tired of this, this shit this story going around and around in circles, ive tried to make a schedule, a timetable, ive tried everything, every single fucking thing, nothing makes sense, i am trying my fucking best here to not loose my mind and my self, i am trying my fucking best here

and its not even that i am dumb or stupid, i know i can do it, i know i have the potential, i see it in me, but this fucking thing doesnt make sense at all, i sit in this god awful chair all day every week, trying to study, trying to complete my task, just to end up being not able to do shit.

and uk whats the worst part? at least before i used to feel something at least, anger, guilt, regret, something, now? nothing. its just, nothing, i dont even know what this fuckass feeling even is, or what the fuck im doing, i know i have to work, i know i have to do, but it doesnt make fucking sense, like FUCKASS JUST DO IT, JUST DO IT, but no, why the absolute fuck would i, im just sitting here doing nothing.

and the funny thing is courses arent even hard, i can see that they arent hard, they are so fucking easy, i see how easy they are, i see it. and yet it god dam doesnt work, i cant god dam fucking do anything,

and it is so fucking tiring, i am so much tired

uk i just feel like pulling my hair out, and just slapping the fuck outta my face, and like, its just so fucking annoying

ive not had a single friend, not a single friend past grade 7, eveyone i ever met since then, everyone i ever talked to, im just "another guy", "another stupid ass fuckface", this year, i decided to push my self to go forward, to go to things that made me say no, all it has done so far is just make me feel more and more awful about my self.

and idk whats wrong with me, i dont know. idk half the time what i am doing, i am always just confused on whats happenign, i dont get what people are doing half the time or how they are so relaxed,

uk, being in my home country, i hated being there, hated it, i never could fit there, never did, not in school and i was scared when i going into college there since i knew i couldnt fit there, coming here was a big restart for me, but surprise surprise it was the same here as well, sure i was able to fit in a little bit, but it was still the same, Uni was another big reset, but whatcha know? Its worse,

and uk i hear people saying that "oh ur young, u have your whole life to figure out" how do i explain to them, i dont. I DONT HAVE THE WHOLE LIFE, I HAVE 4 YEARS. FULL STOP. 4 FUCKING YEARS. and out of 4, 1 has passed, its 3 years ONLY. they dont see my parents, they dont see what my parents are going through just for me to be in this country, they dont see their age, their health i see it. On every call to them i see them getting older and older, even though they are just a GO Bus away, i see them aging and aging fast. I see how my dad went from being all jolly and friendly, to always being stressed, i see how his health is going down, i see my mom aging and aging fast, i see how they are going and like, its not that easy, its not just that

and the one fucking thing i have to do is fucking study, which i surprise surprise doesnt do

and like, idk what im even trying to say i dont know, i dont have any idea, but like its just so annoying and so fucking tiring, i am just, idk, idk what is it, idk what im feeling, idk, and i just feel it, i feel it in my body, and i idk,

shoutout my TA if you're reading this you are my goat i'd die for you

please roast my resume. i am trying to target more data/business analyst roles

Law of excluded middle for real

For context, I’m a first year. I guess I just want to know if anyone feels the same way as me/ have advice.

As silly as it sounds, I’ve never had to make my own decisions before. Elementary and high school is mandatory, and in both settings you’re told exactly what to do. Now that I’m in university I feel so lost. I was sure this is what I wanted growing up but suddenly it’s gone from talking about my future in theory to actually taking steps towards it. I can’t help but feel like it isn’t as great as I was hoping? I have a few good friends but don’t feel motivated to do any school work, and I’ve started questioning what I even want to do with the rest of my life. I mean, I just turned 18. There are so many directions I could go and it’s stressful to work out. I think I’d like the trades (electrician) and it would probably make me the same money as my current major. Maybe a gap year just to work? There are literally endless options and I have zero insight into what would make me truly happy because I don’t have experience in any of it.

I’d appreciate any advice or even just hearing from someone who relates.

Thinking of starting some dating events for UW students and wanted to see if anyone would actually show up before I put the work in lol.

Idea 1: speed dating night

~10 short dates (6 min each),. After each date you privately tap yes/no on your phone. If you both said yes, you get each other's contact the next morning. Nobody finds out who said no.

Was thinking maybe I could also create some themed dating nights - book lovers, asian students only, or sum.

Idea 2: live dating show

Kind of like the balloon-pop / blind date shows on TikTok. In SLC Great Hall.

Anyone interested? Any other ideas? I feel like this would help with all of the loneliness on campus.

Found this usb stick in lot C. If it's yours I'm about to give it to the DP library staff.

Im honestly struggling in math137, all my quizzes have been sub 75 and one failing. I do the practice quiz and I go through the course notes, but it doesn’t really click tbh. I tried searching YouTube videos for the lectures but apparently 137 is different than actual calc 1 which is 127 🫩. Any tips would be appreciated epsilon delta proofs are kicking my ass.

tomorrow

A lot of ppl say I rub off on them

fyi I've never interacted with the real Professor Hans De Sterck before, so this was highkey kinda ominous.

This email was sent twice in 10 minutes to my non-uw address (kinda concerned about how they got my private address from, but eh, i barely care)

stay safe guys!!

I was thinking of applying to either mech or tron, but I'm kinda now realizing I have no idea what type of engineering I want to learn. Is it true that systems design is like everything combined into one? That sounds compelling, as I don't want to go into something I dislike.

Sidenote: Is systems design less or more competitive than tron/mech?

Im a first yeat without a G lisence and I see that a lot of the WW jobs require it, I'm realizing there's not many I can apply to. Have heard people apply for jobs they're not qualified for, but is that okay in this case? Are they really strict on this?

does anyone have any tips on this front?? i’ve been applying broadly (work study, pac, libraries, the postings wusa sometimes puts up, etc) but have had no luck so far. i’m in 2a and i have previous job experience but only as a camp counsellor so it’s been rough. i’d appreciate any advice or suggestions on where to apply!

I am a 1A engineering student who received an offer from a Chinese company that holds a heavyweight name in the global electronics and hardware manufacturing industries. Being a dominant supplier to many big techs like Apple, Tesla, Microsoft, etc. However, I've also heard many people say that International/Chinese internship experiences doesn't transfer well or look good on resume if I want to work in Canada/US in the future. Is this true? Even if I will have good hands-on projects and mentorship, the company is fairly well-known too.

Title. I’m 2A math and an offer I have for the winter as a swe is nice but the company isn’t very interesting. My last internship was at a really cool startup based in the states working in a cool problem space and this company is a pretty mid Canadian startup. I’m pretty sure it is somewhat of a downgrade. That being said, it is my second coop (though it isn’t very late into recruiting cycle) so am I being too picky? Should I reject this offer and try and get better?

Is there an easier way to import lecture slides directly:
Learn -> goodnotes
I currently do:
Learn -> save slides on files/google drive -> import to goodnotes

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anybody know where/when events are at

curious if there is traffic on king street this weekend. Would pull, but is it worth?