I don’t really know how to start this, or even what exactly I’m hoping for by posting this… but something in me is screaming to just try. Because I’m struggling. I feel like I’m drowning in this quiet, heavy pain that never lets up, and I don’t have anyone I can talk to about it. No friends, no support system. Just me, alone with my thoughts, every day.

And it hurts more than I can explain.

There’s this ache inside me. It’s not even just sadness it’s emptiness, like I’m here but not really living. I go through the motions: wake up, pretend I’m fine, maybe smile when someone walks by, scroll on my phone, eat something, go to sleep. Then I wake up and do it again. And again. And again. But there’s no connection. No warmth. No voice on the other end of the line saying, “Hey. I see you. You matter.”

I haven’t had real friends in… honestly, I don’t even know how long. I see people post online about their group chats, about friends who check in, people to hang out with, people who just get them and it makes me feel like I live on another planet. I want that. So badly. I want a friend. I want someone I can trust. Someone who wants to hear how my day was. Someone I can share thoughts with without worrying they’ll judge me, or get bored and disappear.

I want someone to look at me and not just see a person, but see me. The real me. The scared, hurting, honest version. Not the mask I wear because I’m terrified of being a burden.

Because right now… I feel invisible. Like if I disappeared, maybe no one would even notice. And that thought scares the hell out of me.

Depression is like living in a house where all the lights are out. You stumble through it, trying to remember what the light even looked like. Sometimes I sit in silence and feel like I’m screaming inside screaming for someone to just notice me, to care. But no one’s coming. No one knocks. No one texts. No one checks in.

I’m tired. I’m tired of feeling this alone. Tired of carrying everything by myself. Tired of pretending I’m okay when all I want is to cry into someone’s arms and hear, “You’re not alone. I’ve got you.”

I know this post is messy. I know I’m kind of spilling everything out here, but I just needed to say it. Even if it goes unread. Even if no one responds. I needed to write this for the part of me that’s barely holding on. That little thread of hope that maybe someone out there understands. That maybe someone reading this has felt this pain too, the pain of being surrounded by people and still feeling completely unseen.

So, if anyone’s out there… if you’ve ever felt like this… please know you’re not alone. And if you’re someone who’s made it through the darkness, please tell me how. I need to believe there’s a way forward. I need to believe that life can feel warm again.

And if you’re like me, just trying to get through the day, quietly hoping someone reaches back, message me. Comment. Say hi. Anything. I’m not looking for shallow conversation. I just want real. Something human. Someone to talk to. Someone who sees me.

Thanks for reading this. Truly. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being here, even for just a few minutes.

Please take care of yourself too. The world is hard enough already. We don’t have to do this alone.

I haven't had a friend since 5th grade till now because I was an online kid, which I didn't want to be, and I also dreamed long of having friends. I graduated this may and I've made one friend recently. One thing I have realized since moving out is that I like being alone. I like my own space. I enjoy myself and would rather spend 99% of my time alone.

I've tried fighting it all this time and I would get FOMO, I still do, and then I remember how I feel when I hang out with some people. The reason I said "I think" was because I'm unsure if whether it's the people I surround myself around or my nature that brings me to like being alone.

What's important to me is having ambition and drive, which is something I have much of. I want to focus on myself and achieve my dreams. And don't get me wrong, when I do want to hang out, I do so with the one friend I have. By the end of it, I'm satisfied and want to be alone again.

I also find it a lot easier to talk to older people. Some people this age (18-19) take things the wrong way. Most older people are simpler in my experience. It's nice hearing their life experiences. Maybe it's just that I am around the wrong people.

Friends might not be there with you in 5 years, but what you work to achieve will be.

Everything feels so heavy right now, and I'm trying so hard not to break down. I've been forcing myself to sleep, hoping I could escape my own thoughts for a while, but nothing seems to help. I still feel the same heaviness when I close my eyes. I don't even know how to explain what I'm feeling anymore. I just know that I'm tired of keeping everything inside, pretending I'm okay when my mind is a mess.

Life sucks

Firstly, i wanna say excuse me for my bad english as it is not my first language.

i am 17M and in FY engineering.

i am super introvert and dont have many friends.

i have enough but when i am among them i dont feel like one of them.i just feel like a lost traveller in a desert.i just wanna make friends that really care about me ,talk to me.i am just afraid to approch new people and make new friends.it has affected me to such extent i just get dream of imaginary friends.i just dont have any friends to tell all this so i just found these subreddit.

Like five months ago i confessed my feelings to my female bestfriend she said she doesn't feel the same i accepted. i should be sad about that but when she rejected me i just felt nothing like a man who dosen't have a heart.After that our friendship just got ruined and she is ghosting me.i could say she was the only one i could call as a friend.This hurts a lot man.

i am great in my studies but when i score like good grades i just dont feel any happiness. now i just dont feel like studying anymore.

everything in these world bores me like reels , mobile games anything i do just get bored after some times.

i am just addicted to porn and even my parents have caught me many times that have just ruined our relationship to much extent.

Even waking in the morning feels like a burden.

i just dont want this life man.( i mn a better life)

Just tell me what i am doing wrong?

how to bring the spark of the life?

(dont judge me base on my karma i just started using reddit like a week ago)

Why does life have to be so unbelievably hard sometimes. You try so hard to be there for people with everything that they are going through and be the one person that will listen to them so they feel heard and seen and yet nobody is that for you.

Hey I am looking to talk to someone on the phone I really don’t want to be alone rn

I feel so sad and out of place everywhere but i have no reason to be. I’m smart and pretty but im not happy i have decent friends but i want romantic connection but i cant seem to find someone who wants something genuine, maybe it’s my autism maybe i want too much idk. the only reason i haven’t killed myslef is my mom i love her so much she cares about me so deeply and id feel guilty. i feel like i ruined my life im 18 and got a fucking dui i was in cosmetology but im dropping out and i want to be a psychologist now because ive struggled mentally and i want to help others find peace. im smart i just dont know if i have the motivation

formatting and grammar is awful im 8 shots im sorry i just wanted to get some of it out can someone dm or call

I’m going through a really hard break up and I need someone to talk to me…the anxiety of it all is getting to me. It feels like my heart might actually explode? And I’m all alone. I have no one. So somebody please talk to me…I really need someone….anyone at all…

Idk why for some months I feel no passion , lonely , like every friend I had was a convinience friend . I am all alone and idk what I want to do. Any advices? How to deal with this

It’s just as the title says