r/dysautonomia • u/cantth1nk0fus3rnamee • 3h ago
Vent/Rant Feeling hopeless… does it get better?
I’ve had some sort of nervous system issue since May, triggered by issues with my levothyroxine dose. It got significantly worse following an ER visit in early June. It calmed down a couple months after that, but resurged when I was put on too many different meds in a short period of time. It eased up again until a couple of weeks ago. This time the trigger was three (low) doses of Vitamin D over several days.
Now everything I drink just comes out, and I’m so dehydrated. I’ve been relying on electrolytes since late May and when I forget them I get dizzy. Sometimes my heart rate gets out of control, but I’ve been able to avoid my beta blocker for over a month. Any food I’m sensitive to causes significant GI issues. Same with alcohol, certain supplements, or certain meds. I am exhausted, my body wakes me up too early, and my work is heavily impacted. Sometimes I don’t digest my pills, which causes withdrawal symptoms. I have frequent abdominal pain that makes all these issues worse. If my GI issues fully return, I will be screwed because every GI med/treatment made either my nervous system or electrolyte balance worse.
I’m trying not to add anything new; it was dumb enough to try the vitamin D. But before taking it a couple weeks ago, I was feeling optimistic. I was just starting to run again, was planning on going back to the gym, and was more active socially. I thought I was returning to the way my life was before these issues started. This has been going on for months. It is making me put my life plans on hold, and cancel social plans. I tell myself “I’ll start when I’m better” but it doesn’t seem to end.
Every time I see improvement something happens to screw things up again. I’ve been trying to be optimistic but I’m losing hope. All tests have showed up normal. If a doctor tells me I’ll have to deal with this for the rest of my life, I might give up. I’m trying to tell myself that this is a temporary setback caused by the vitamin d, but I might unintentionally take something in the future that starts the cycle all over again. After the ER visit I basically peed out everything I drank for five weeks straight and this time it’s been almost two weeks of the same. I’m scared and tired. The longer it lasts the worse it will get.
I’ve tried everything and nothing seems to help (except magnesium glycinate, but it dehydrated me more and caused more GI issues). Has anyone had their symptoms improve, or have been able to take back their lives? I’m so tired and I just need some hope.