19 female
Hi. I really hope the right one sees this and we can talk. I've never dated and never kissed never the other thing. I get it. I'm young. I live in Oklahoma, and maybe this would just be stupid, and no one sees. I have no friends, I don't want any. I love myself, but I'm tired of feeling like I'm too much. At some point, I'd give just stop and i know that. I won't do this forever cause it sucks being alone. Being independent. No family to count on. Idk what I'd even get posting this. Prolly nothing. Maybe someone being mean or trying to therapist me.
I only want 2 things a loving husband I can love all of him, no need to change him at all, and he loves me back. Sensitive, gentle, caring. Equal. Maybe he goes to therapy himself and takes account for things he has done. I feel stupid.
I'm not the girl who can flirt with every guy and be okay with it, sleep with every guy and be okay with it. Writing this message feels stupid, yet I'm still here. I don't want to have to settle and just stay with a guy who has had sex with multiple women. Have to beg for his attention, or feel like everything I do is wrong. I would love to know what it feels like to be kissed.
To be held.
But I don't think it will happen. Guys don't like me. Maybe I'm just so insanely ugly that they laugh. But I don't think so. I hate calling myself that knowing my wallpaper is a picture of me when I was a kid. So I'm calling her ugly telling her she's too much. This is stupid really Is. Feel free to just laugh and point at me. I doubt anyone would read this stupid shit.
I keep getting messages and there all just proving my point they want pics they think oh she's lonely so she's send. NO I won't. Ur proving my damn point. I'm hoping someone reads this and resonates and lives near me so we could go for a walk and talk about nature. Idk anymore I'm gonna delete this when I go back to work.
Please me nearby I hope the right one sees this I'm so tired of being alone. But I rather be alone forever then settle. My standards aren't high it's just people are so used to the bare minimum, that mine is just like wow you want attention and for someone to love you no filter. I mean I don't wear makeup but I mean like I started loving myself more once I stopped doing all this beauty stuff. Embracing my natural body and I feel good and sexy and beautiful like I see it on my face. But put yourself in my shoes. I've never been chosen EVER. So it's like there's something wrong with me right. Anyways I doubt anyone reading these or reading and is like she's weird. But. Idk.